i want to listen to aggresive rock song/a rapping by Eminem, so that i can thrash and bullshit about everything that doesnt matter.
i want to listen to the most melancholic song so that i can cry like mad, and sleep because im too tired to care about anything else.
i want to listen to a happy song so that i can laugh like nothing in this world could break me.
*emotionally unstable.Im a girl.
Nov 30, 2010
Nov 28, 2010
Welcoming the bright side
The semester is about to resume again. This morning i was on duty-registration for the new students, who would hopefully be here for the next four years. i was in charge of students from the mechanical and Electric dept. not many came, maybe they are still on their way..usually the first step out of home for a newbie is very difficult. the prospect of having to survive alone, creating a new life is not a very welcoming experience for most..Especially the youngsters. Today, parents and family came to see their children off, figuratively on the journey towards a better future..
Longer hours of waiting for the students, my mind was drifting about..
i was thinking about the first time i went out of home. i didnt really have the luxury to be accompanied by my family.My father trusted me enough to take care of myself.. at first i was excited. as soon as i reach MCIIUM, and took bath that night, i cried like mad..silly girl of eighteen i was..hahaha. But actually i was crying the whole journey,from the airport in the plane..i was teary..teary and excited at the same time..Thank god, i met with many good people-strangers who were kind enough to lead me through until i reached MCIIUM. even the taxi driver was very kind-he helped me carry my things to the groundfloor of the hostel, and waited until i had safely registered..I was immensely thankful for that..
seeing these students, especially the girls-so innocent and dumbfounded,yet so beautiful and polished so to speak-would they still be having the same look after they get acquainted with this place?would they still be having the same spirit?would they still remember their goal and aspiration once they start of? or would they forget everything and change into different people all together?we would never know for sure what would happen in the future.No idea at all.
i met and talked with a few of my students. They talked about their results. i kinda like this kind of heart to heart. It made me feel different. instead of them seeing me as someone to be feared, or loathed or just another teacher passing by, they valued my advice and were good enough to share their feeling, thought and worries about their study with me. At least, for some of these students, my judgments are not wrong. I am always open to this kind of challenge. The challenge to offer humane understanding.i want to be off help where i can. when it was my time, i had met with many people who provide the same supports and showed greater understanding.. So now i guess it's time to pass the baton.
i guess, everyone has their own way of thinking.. and every course you decide to follow will be your responsibility.Whatever happens is based on your way of thinking it through. Who is to say whether its right or wrong but you?
Lets start with good spirit and readiness to embrace the lessons that come along the way.:o)
Longer hours of waiting for the students, my mind was drifting about..
i was thinking about the first time i went out of home. i didnt really have the luxury to be accompanied by my family.My father trusted me enough to take care of myself.. at first i was excited. as soon as i reach MCIIUM, and took bath that night, i cried like mad..silly girl of eighteen i was..hahaha. But actually i was crying the whole journey,from the airport in the plane..i was teary..teary and excited at the same time..Thank god, i met with many good people-strangers who were kind enough to lead me through until i reached MCIIUM. even the taxi driver was very kind-he helped me carry my things to the groundfloor of the hostel, and waited until i had safely registered..I was immensely thankful for that..
seeing these students, especially the girls-so innocent and dumbfounded,yet so beautiful and polished so to speak-would they still be having the same look after they get acquainted with this place?would they still be having the same spirit?would they still remember their goal and aspiration once they start of? or would they forget everything and change into different people all together?we would never know for sure what would happen in the future.No idea at all.
i met and talked with a few of my students. They talked about their results. i kinda like this kind of heart to heart. It made me feel different. instead of them seeing me as someone to be feared, or loathed or just another teacher passing by, they valued my advice and were good enough to share their feeling, thought and worries about their study with me. At least, for some of these students, my judgments are not wrong. I am always open to this kind of challenge. The challenge to offer humane understanding.i want to be off help where i can. when it was my time, i had met with many people who provide the same supports and showed greater understanding.. So now i guess it's time to pass the baton.
i guess, everyone has their own way of thinking.. and every course you decide to follow will be your responsibility.Whatever happens is based on your way of thinking it through. Who is to say whether its right or wrong but you?
Lets start with good spirit and readiness to embrace the lessons that come along the way.:o)
Nov 27, 2010
Aim High and Dont Belittle Yourself
A believer doesn't settle for a second place. A believer is not satisfied with mediocrity.
A believer is never content with just enough. Don't limit yourself.
Sulaiman (as), a prophet, a king, son of a king and son of a prophet, didn't stop there, instead he asked Allah for a unique kingdom that no one else will have after him.
Musa (as), one of the greatest 5 messengers of Allah, brother of a Prophet, and one who spoke to Allah directly, didn't stop there, instead he aimed higher and asked to see Allah with his eyes.
Our beloved Prophet Muhammad (saws), and we all know the status of our Prohpet (saws), requested his Ummah to ask Allah to grant him a place in Paradise that is only reserved for one person, at the peak of Paradise.
Umar ibn AbdulAziz (r) one of the greatest and successful leaders in history, said on his death bed: "I have a soul that always aims high." Abu Bakr (r) upon hearing about the gates of Paradise, asked the Prophet (saws) if it's possible for a person to be invited to enter from all gates of Paradise. Showing us the high determination and mentality of the companions of the Prophet (saws).
(Jumuah Khutbah delivered on the 30th of July 2010 by shaykh Said Rageah at Green Lane Masjid, Birmingham UK.)
There is a neverending stream of thanks from my students for the good result they got for their communicative English. Truly, a little of it was my input, but the rest was their own efforts and hardworks. So whatever they got, they deserved it. Im only here to facilitate them here and there. Im happy to be a contributive factor that brings about happiness for others:o)
InsyaAllah, for the new semester is yet another jihad towards improvement.
(Semoga dipermudahkan urusanku dalam menunaikan tanggungjawabku sehari-harian,amin)
A believer is never content with just enough. Don't limit yourself.
Sulaiman (as), a prophet, a king, son of a king and son of a prophet, didn't stop there, instead he asked Allah for a unique kingdom that no one else will have after him.
Musa (as), one of the greatest 5 messengers of Allah, brother of a Prophet, and one who spoke to Allah directly, didn't stop there, instead he aimed higher and asked to see Allah with his eyes.
Our beloved Prophet Muhammad (saws), and we all know the status of our Prohpet (saws), requested his Ummah to ask Allah to grant him a place in Paradise that is only reserved for one person, at the peak of Paradise.
Umar ibn AbdulAziz (r) one of the greatest and successful leaders in history, said on his death bed: "I have a soul that always aims high." Abu Bakr (r) upon hearing about the gates of Paradise, asked the Prophet (saws) if it's possible for a person to be invited to enter from all gates of Paradise. Showing us the high determination and mentality of the companions of the Prophet (saws).
(Jumuah Khutbah delivered on the 30th of July 2010 by shaykh Said Rageah at Green Lane Masjid, Birmingham UK.)
There is a neverending stream of thanks from my students for the good result they got for their communicative English. Truly, a little of it was my input, but the rest was their own efforts and hardworks. So whatever they got, they deserved it. Im only here to facilitate them here and there. Im happy to be a contributive factor that brings about happiness for others:o)
InsyaAllah, for the new semester is yet another jihad towards improvement.
(Semoga dipermudahkan urusanku dalam menunaikan tanggungjawabku sehari-harian,amin)
Nov 26, 2010
Damned Masochist
A question..
Why would you keep coming back, and dragged it on when you know, that you dont want it anymore?
An Answer...
Because you know, no matter what words passed between us, what happened in between, im always available and diposable later..
Why would i feel affected?
Oh,For God's Sake, because iam stupid and dont know what's good for me.
Why are you so damned Masochist, AZ????!
Why would you keep coming back, and dragged it on when you know, that you dont want it anymore?
An Answer...
Because you know, no matter what words passed between us, what happened in between, im always available and diposable later..
Why would i feel affected?
Oh,For God's Sake, because iam stupid and dont know what's good for me.
Why are you so damned Masochist, AZ????!
Salam Jumaat
Waktu bergerak pantas. Dalam kepantasan itu, bertemu lagi dengan hari Jumaat, sang penghulu segala hari. Semoga Jumaat ini bukan yang terakhir buat kita, dan semoga Jumaat ini memberikan seribu pengertian buat meng-improvisasi diri.InsyaAllah
renungan untuk diri sendiri:
1. Meninggalkan sembahyang - Ular Saqar sedang menunggu
2. Melewat-lewatkan sembahyang - Neraka WAIL sedang menganga
3. Meringan-ringankan syariat - Mendapat pandangan murka Al-Jabbar
4. Mengumpat peribadi orang - Gunting neraka sedang diasah
5. Menyebarkan gossip atau fitnah - Duri- duri menanti anda di taman neraka
6. Tidak menjaga pergaulan - Libasan api neraka dijanjikan
7. Tidak berakhlak dengan manusia - Kemurkaan Allah bersama mu..
8. Menyakiti hati orang dengan lisan - Masuklah mana-mana pintu neraka
9.Meringankan amanah - Angkatlah seberkas kayu dari neraka
10.Bersangka buruk - Amalan baik diambil orang
Insya Allah....
renungan untuk diri sendiri:
1. Meninggalkan sembahyang - Ular Saqar sedang menunggu
2. Melewat-lewatkan sembahyang - Neraka WAIL sedang menganga
3. Meringan-ringankan syariat - Mendapat pandangan murka Al-Jabbar
4. Mengumpat peribadi orang - Gunting neraka sedang diasah
5. Menyebarkan gossip atau fitnah - Duri- duri menanti anda di taman neraka
6. Tidak menjaga pergaulan - Libasan api neraka dijanjikan
7. Tidak berakhlak dengan manusia - Kemurkaan Allah bersama mu..
8. Menyakiti hati orang dengan lisan - Masuklah mana-mana pintu neraka
9.Meringankan amanah - Angkatlah seberkas kayu dari neraka
10.Bersangka buruk - Amalan baik diambil orang
Insya Allah....
Nov 25, 2010
questioning the truth?
What is the truth?
so you are not?
your feeling is not?
your attention is not?
your words are not?
then what is?
oh heck..
Just leave
just leave..
Leave!!!!!
so you are not?
your feeling is not?
your attention is not?
your words are not?
then what is?
oh heck..
Just leave
just leave..
Leave!!!!!
Nov 24, 2010
shopping for thoughts
i have been wanting to get things off my chest for quite some times now, but i don't know how to start..in which direction should i head off. My one week leave had triggered my train of thought about many aspects of life in general. Things which i had believed in the past, but had forgotten according to the course of time. Something which is staring me in the eyes yet, i had or choose to be oblivious about it.
On saturday, i was supposedly on a 1600 flight to Miri before it was cancelled and retimed to 0645 the next day.. So i asked my brother to dropped me off at CP, planning to shop for several items. My brother dropped me off readily, as he went about meeting his girlfriend.. The time alone had been a mental journey-comtemplative.reflective.
the story started earlier, just before we(my brother and i) headed to KK to catch the 1600 flight to Miri....
Early in the morning, my brother went to help at our soon-to-be home, so we planned to go around 1300 hour. i had a feeling that it wont be easy to escape my baby brother, as he had tagged along with me everywhere i go, since i arrived at home. Infact, he had "babyishly" put all his belongings in my bag, so that he can go with me "naik kapal to sarawak".
So when it was actually 1300 hour sharp, we were ready to go..my baby brother was already teary, hugging me, begging me to bring him along. I couldnt stand his crying, so i thought it would be easier to let him go with us, and after a few minutes we would send him back home...a strategy meant to sort of "cheated" him..Urgh,hate lying to minors.
But then, my brother had a better idea..it was to bring him to the nearest shop, to buy him an ice cream, or whatever it was that he fancied.. Yeah, he did fancy something but it was not the ice cream..It was the toys. by the times, he was done with the choosing and picking, it was already well after 1330 hour..By logic, now, i could safely say that, i had missed by 1600 hour flight.
it was well after 1345 hour when we finally headed off to KK, with mixed feeling..Although i was aware that the possibility to miss the flight was 99.99 percent, but still i didnt want to jump to conclusion so fast..i also didnt want my brother to drive like a lunatic just because of a flight..so, i stay calm and went about as if it was no big deal..i never stopped praying to Allah for mercy and miracles. After all, it was not as if we were late on purpose. our lateness was caused by our deeper empathy for our little brother..at least that was my justification..there was no use agonising about it anyway..better be safe than sorry.
it was 1545 hour when we reached the airport, so i dashed to the departure hall-check in counter, only to be told that: Cik, u punya flight cancelled ni. retimed pegi 6.45am, but u boleh check in sekarang...phew, that was a very good news for me. Praise be to Allah, the Almighty...i went about hugging my brother, happy for the twist of event.:o)
My reflection was:
when you have enough consideration for others, the universe will show even greater consideration for you.
a)i cant go anywhere during the holiday without my little brother tagging along, so i stayed home. In return, allah gave me plenty of times to shop for the things i needed while waiting for my retimed flight.
b)i had never really had a heart to heart talk with my brother for quite some times now, the retimed flight gave us spaces to do just that...to mend on broken strings..:o)
c)Should my 1600 hour flight was on, i would be stranded in Miri alone that night..and i wouldnt had the chance to meet my cousin in the airport the next morning, who sweetly bought me breakfast and saw that i got into a taxi safely to Pujut Terminal... (its not that i cant buy breakfast myself,im referring to the deed)
d) should my 1600 hour flight was on, i would be going solo from Miri to Mukah.. i found friends who were kind enough and let me tagged along with them until i reached Poly safely that evening.
It might be an insignificant account-but i am a sucker for kindness.Kindness that brings about positive energy into my sphere.
The conclusion is: when we are doing something good, why are we questioning what good things we will get in return?
Perhaps we concentrate so much on the idea of a much bigger return for the kindness, that we do not notice the smaller good things that staring us in the face.
even better: why we questioned "why" we need to do good things when everybody else is not doing any?
But then, everybody else is not you..so why compare?
so my reflection is: for every good thing you do, you will get abundant in return.:o)
so my mission: Think good things, do good things.:o)
On saturday, i was supposedly on a 1600 flight to Miri before it was cancelled and retimed to 0645 the next day.. So i asked my brother to dropped me off at CP, planning to shop for several items. My brother dropped me off readily, as he went about meeting his girlfriend.. The time alone had been a mental journey-comtemplative.reflective.
the story started earlier, just before we(my brother and i) headed to KK to catch the 1600 flight to Miri....
Early in the morning, my brother went to help at our soon-to-be home, so we planned to go around 1300 hour. i had a feeling that it wont be easy to escape my baby brother, as he had tagged along with me everywhere i go, since i arrived at home. Infact, he had "babyishly" put all his belongings in my bag, so that he can go with me "naik kapal to sarawak".
So when it was actually 1300 hour sharp, we were ready to go..my baby brother was already teary, hugging me, begging me to bring him along. I couldnt stand his crying, so i thought it would be easier to let him go with us, and after a few minutes we would send him back home...a strategy meant to sort of "cheated" him..Urgh,hate lying to minors.
But then, my brother had a better idea..it was to bring him to the nearest shop, to buy him an ice cream, or whatever it was that he fancied.. Yeah, he did fancy something but it was not the ice cream..It was the toys. by the times, he was done with the choosing and picking, it was already well after 1330 hour..By logic, now, i could safely say that, i had missed by 1600 hour flight.
it was well after 1345 hour when we finally headed off to KK, with mixed feeling..Although i was aware that the possibility to miss the flight was 99.99 percent, but still i didnt want to jump to conclusion so fast..i also didnt want my brother to drive like a lunatic just because of a flight..so, i stay calm and went about as if it was no big deal..i never stopped praying to Allah for mercy and miracles. After all, it was not as if we were late on purpose. our lateness was caused by our deeper empathy for our little brother..at least that was my justification..there was no use agonising about it anyway..better be safe than sorry.
it was 1545 hour when we reached the airport, so i dashed to the departure hall-check in counter, only to be told that: Cik, u punya flight cancelled ni. retimed pegi 6.45am, but u boleh check in sekarang...phew, that was a very good news for me. Praise be to Allah, the Almighty...i went about hugging my brother, happy for the twist of event.:o)
My reflection was:
when you have enough consideration for others, the universe will show even greater consideration for you.
a)i cant go anywhere during the holiday without my little brother tagging along, so i stayed home. In return, allah gave me plenty of times to shop for the things i needed while waiting for my retimed flight.
b)i had never really had a heart to heart talk with my brother for quite some times now, the retimed flight gave us spaces to do just that...to mend on broken strings..:o)
c)Should my 1600 hour flight was on, i would be stranded in Miri alone that night..and i wouldnt had the chance to meet my cousin in the airport the next morning, who sweetly bought me breakfast and saw that i got into a taxi safely to Pujut Terminal... (its not that i cant buy breakfast myself,im referring to the deed)
d) should my 1600 hour flight was on, i would be going solo from Miri to Mukah.. i found friends who were kind enough and let me tagged along with them until i reached Poly safely that evening.
It might be an insignificant account-but i am a sucker for kindness.Kindness that brings about positive energy into my sphere.
The conclusion is: when we are doing something good, why are we questioning what good things we will get in return?
Perhaps we concentrate so much on the idea of a much bigger return for the kindness, that we do not notice the smaller good things that staring us in the face.
even better: why we questioned "why" we need to do good things when everybody else is not doing any?
But then, everybody else is not you..so why compare?
so my reflection is: for every good thing you do, you will get abundant in return.:o)
so my mission: Think good things, do good things.:o)
Nov 22, 2010
*piercing stare*
i cant pierce anyone with any stare..because my mind is fully loaded with good thought, and my heart is heavy with gratitude.
Thank you Allah for the miracles, and for the ability to see and understand it.
Thank you Allah for the miracles, and for the ability to see and understand it.
Duhai Pentafsir
Pentafsir, sebenarnya telah lama ku cari
suaramu yang sarat
ke mana jatuhnya gema itu?
Di manakah tempat istirahat
setelah pengembaraan yang penat
di manakah telah kurakamkan
pertemuan matahari, rimba dan lautan?
Senja ini menemuiku
dengan lusuh catatanmu
angin sedang cuba mengoyak-ngoyakkan lembar-lembar buku
sedang aku belum ketemu
surat yang kau tuliskan padaku.
telah hilangkah ia
atau kau tidak pernah menulisnya
ah, aku tidak bisa tidur dan melupakan
racun keresahan telah membunuh lenaku
sejak kudahagai penawar dalam lautan nota-notamu
kiranya terdampar dalam angin yang ragu
yang tidak mengenal arah tiupannya
angin tanpa sabar yang telah melunturkan
kehijauan dalam keriangan masa kecilku.
Pentafsir, musim telah terlalu tua
kaca jendela menjadi kelabu
dan aku telah terlalu lesu
untuk menari bersama bayang-bayangmu
senja pun semakin larut
lembar-lembar jadi semakin kuning
apakah aku harus mengebumikan buku-buku ini
di samping pusaramu yang sepi.
Hentikan ejekanmu
biar kupecahkan kaca ini
melihat keluar. Lalu mengenal
rumpun-rumpun yang redup
adalah pengakuanmu, Tuhanku!
yang menjernihkan mataku.
(Dipetik daripada Antologi Kerusi,Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka, 2004)
-Zurinah Hassan-
suaramu yang sarat
ke mana jatuhnya gema itu?
Di manakah tempat istirahat
setelah pengembaraan yang penat
di manakah telah kurakamkan
pertemuan matahari, rimba dan lautan?
Senja ini menemuiku
dengan lusuh catatanmu
angin sedang cuba mengoyak-ngoyakkan lembar-lembar buku
sedang aku belum ketemu
surat yang kau tuliskan padaku.
telah hilangkah ia
atau kau tidak pernah menulisnya
ah, aku tidak bisa tidur dan melupakan
racun keresahan telah membunuh lenaku
sejak kudahagai penawar dalam lautan nota-notamu
kiranya terdampar dalam angin yang ragu
yang tidak mengenal arah tiupannya
angin tanpa sabar yang telah melunturkan
kehijauan dalam keriangan masa kecilku.
Pentafsir, musim telah terlalu tua
kaca jendela menjadi kelabu
dan aku telah terlalu lesu
untuk menari bersama bayang-bayangmu
senja pun semakin larut
lembar-lembar jadi semakin kuning
apakah aku harus mengebumikan buku-buku ini
di samping pusaramu yang sepi.
Hentikan ejekanmu
biar kupecahkan kaca ini
melihat keluar. Lalu mengenal
rumpun-rumpun yang redup
adalah pengakuanmu, Tuhanku!
yang menjernihkan mataku.
(Dipetik daripada Antologi Kerusi,Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka, 2004)
-Zurinah Hassan-
Nov 20, 2010
crappy
Hell yes!
you are just so yesterday...
past.
ancient.
dull.
so damned predictable....i LIKE surprises and new challenge..u are so not it.
u are marked.
boring.
i can finish your sentence in one second.
can guess your thought.
so bring your crappy stuff somewhere else..
...BUT NOT HERE...
you are just so yesterday...
past.
ancient.
dull.
so damned predictable....i LIKE surprises and new challenge..u are so not it.
u are marked.
boring.
i can finish your sentence in one second.
can guess your thought.
so bring your crappy stuff somewhere else..
...BUT NOT HERE...
Nov 18, 2010
Hypo
im such a hypocrite...
if you know, would you still be feeling the same way?
at a time like this, i would really like the chance to do it right from the start..
then, i wouldnt feel battered with guilt and self-loath.
if you know, would you still be feeling the same way?
at a time like this, i would really like the chance to do it right from the start..
then, i wouldnt feel battered with guilt and self-loath.
Nov 15, 2010
Hopeless:o)
i am a hopeless romantic, who is hopelessly happy because i am swept hopelessly in love with you..:o)
what a super-nice surprise! He was at home the same time i said i would be home..Even if he had to rush back after one day:o).To be honest, i dont really mind it if he couldnt make it..Work and work, but then he did and that made all the differences. I was surprised, flattered and touched beyond description.
I love what he did for me, and hopefully in time, i would be able to really really fall for him..For Good.
on a serious note, i am really thankful for him. Somehow,he brings a new definition to my messed up life. For the friendship he offers, for the understanding, and for just being there for me when i was really in need of someone to just be there. i wouldnt depend on him on how to run my life. All im asking is for his friendship and companionship. Anyway, relationship is not all about love.. There are many aspects to it.And i hope im not selfish for wanting all of that from him. i hope in time i would learn to really really love him in the real sense of the word.
i dont know how to let you know my appreciation..I can only make you see it.
what a super-nice surprise! He was at home the same time i said i would be home..Even if he had to rush back after one day:o).To be honest, i dont really mind it if he couldnt make it..Work and work, but then he did and that made all the differences. I was surprised, flattered and touched beyond description.
I love what he did for me, and hopefully in time, i would be able to really really fall for him..For Good.
on a serious note, i am really thankful for him. Somehow,he brings a new definition to my messed up life. For the friendship he offers, for the understanding, and for just being there for me when i was really in need of someone to just be there. i wouldnt depend on him on how to run my life. All im asking is for his friendship and companionship. Anyway, relationship is not all about love.. There are many aspects to it.And i hope im not selfish for wanting all of that from him. i hope in time i would learn to really really love him in the real sense of the word.
i dont know how to let you know my appreciation..I can only make you see it.
Nov 11, 2010
Audit Fever
interesting 'phrase'..
a)tally-mally means all the information in the FRP especially in the RM and attendance matched.
b)Teletubbies are people who pretended that what they did or didnt do for the auditing process are damned funny-when in actuality-they are super irritating.
c)Telematch is any join effort to complete the FRP be it for yourself or for other people, who didnt seem to complete the FRP any time soon..or choose not to com
plete, and point it as other people's business.therefore, other people have to somehow be responsible for it..
d) Telemovie is any emotional and dramatic display of attitude as well as ocar winning acting, which is cheap, unprofessional and uncalled for..also refers to any hue raised to disturb other people's sanity and peace of mind..
word (a) and (d) are coined by mr.bos.Other words are from the writer's imagination...hehehe
a)tally-mally means all the information in the FRP especially in the RM and attendance matched.
b)Teletubbies are people who pretended that what they did or didnt do for the auditing process are damned funny-when in actuality-they are super irritating.
c)Telematch is any join effort to complete the FRP be it for yourself or for other people, who didnt seem to complete the FRP any time soon..or choose not to com
plete, and point it as other people's business.therefore, other people have to somehow be responsible for it..
d) Telemovie is any emotional and dramatic display of attitude as well as ocar winning acting, which is cheap, unprofessional and uncalled for..also refers to any hue raised to disturb other people's sanity and peace of mind..
word (a) and (d) are coined by mr.bos.Other words are from the writer's imagination...hehehe
Nov 9, 2010
WHAT??????
what do you feel when you hear a helpless child cries?
Do you like the sound?
Do you love the sight?
Dont you feel any tightening of chest?
can you understand the pain? Do you want to?
What kind of satisfaction do you crave?
What KIND of craving is that?
you and me are different.. where you feel thrilled for the pain you inflicted, i feel
devastated...
Where you think your action is justified, i cant help but feel that your action is
downright cold blooded.
i bet you dont even understand my frustration, or why i cried...
Do you like the sound?
Do you love the sight?
Dont you feel any tightening of chest?
can you understand the pain? Do you want to?
What kind of satisfaction do you crave?
What KIND of craving is that?
you and me are different.. where you feel thrilled for the pain you inflicted, i feel
devastated...
Where you think your action is justified, i cant help but feel that your action is
downright cold blooded.
i bet you dont even understand my frustration, or why i cried...
Nov 6, 2010
one year it is!
Today is one year of misery and sadness.
today is one year of misleading motivation.
it suddenly crossed my mind, that today was infact the beginning of unfolding disaster last year.
A relationship that shouldt start in the first place started at this day last year.
Ya Allah,im sorrowful and my heart is so heavy with regret and sadness.Please help me see the way to overcome the misery.
today is one year of misleading motivation.
it suddenly crossed my mind, that today was infact the beginning of unfolding disaster last year.
A relationship that shouldt start in the first place started at this day last year.
Ya Allah,im sorrowful and my heart is so heavy with regret and sadness.Please help me see the way to overcome the misery.
Just another boring update
2012
i was disappointed because after all of the hues, the movie did not even fulfill my expectation. Gross computerized scenes, and illogical description of events..and annoying pretense of art..this movie is just a flimsy pretext for those people to prostitute the value of movie making skill.. they just wanted to fire up some sentiments of so called judgment day, but trying so hard IS annoying, up to some extend..i get bored just watching stereo-type. the should be, the shouldnt..annoying!
FRP
on the way to completion.
life in general
Bittersweet.im in a terrible mood yesterday..Perhaps,because of my busy-ness.Perhaps, it was my pattern of thinking. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..
i was disappointed because after all of the hues, the movie did not even fulfill my expectation. Gross computerized scenes, and illogical description of events..and annoying pretense of art..this movie is just a flimsy pretext for those people to prostitute the value of movie making skill.. they just wanted to fire up some sentiments of so called judgment day, but trying so hard IS annoying, up to some extend..i get bored just watching stereo-type. the should be, the shouldnt..annoying!
FRP
on the way to completion.
life in general
Bittersweet.im in a terrible mood yesterday..Perhaps,because of my busy-ness.Perhaps, it was my pattern of thinking. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..
Nov 3, 2010
Caught up
..caught up in a whirlpool..
My life is in complete carzy-mad mood..
Everything coming down all at once..the PBs..the marking..SIRIM..FRP..
HARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!
i need "An Idiot Guide on How to Survive My Life" manual...
My life is in complete carzy-mad mood..
Everything coming down all at once..the PBs..the marking..SIRIM..FRP..
HARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!
i need "An Idiot Guide on How to Survive My Life" manual...
Nov 1, 2010
Daging kambing+black pepper
simple recipe..u need:
daging kambing
a packet of maggi's black pepper seasoning
salt,sugar,or any seasoning..depends to your taste
a half full jug of water
onions..daun bawang n bawang besar
...the rest is simple..
it is so savoury..:O)
daripada mkn daging mentah-mentah,pastu meroyan tidak pasal-pasal,pergi cuba resipi ini..manalah tau insecurity n self confidence kamu meningkat..
daging kambing
a packet of maggi's black pepper seasoning
salt,sugar,or any seasoning..depends to your taste
a half full jug of water
onions..daun bawang n bawang besar
...the rest is simple..
it is so savoury..:O)
daripada mkn daging mentah-mentah,pastu meroyan tidak pasal-pasal,pergi cuba resipi ini..manalah tau insecurity n self confidence kamu meningkat..
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