plan and consider

I was living in a fast lane last week. Had to attend to many things. But I like the rush because it makes me focus on one thing and one thing only…work! Basically that’s the meaning of my life. I can proudly announce that. I enjoy the solace I feel when I am working. Though I never meant to imply that it is all chocolate and roses. the beauty of it all was in the way it makes me bury my head in the chaos. Somewhat it organizes my life and gives a new definition to my feeling without complication. In so many ways, I love it.

I have plans for my life.Everything is planned in an orderly sequence because I prefer to do it my way. I never let anything stand in the way. I only care for something that matters to me. But now,many things just popped up out of nowhere that i might have to reconsider those plannings.

I have too many reservations about life.Got a lot of question.maybe it's experience and maybe it's observation or both. My friend said I have too high an expectation. And that it is hard to fulfill them. In exact word “susah to satisfy u…” But that’s the only way I know how to fend for myself. I can’t afford being casual about life…Let alone making mistake or opening up just to be hurt again. There are so many things to answer for. So many feelings to take care of. So many bigger considerations than just being casual about life.

so,Is it asking too much to not settle for less?