shopping for thoughts

i have been wanting to get things off my chest for quite some times now, but i don't know how to start..in which direction should i head off. My one week leave had triggered my train of thought about many aspects of life in general. Things which i had believed in the past, but had forgotten according to the course of time. Something which is staring me in the eyes yet, i had or choose to be oblivious about it.

On saturday, i was supposedly on a 1600 flight to Miri before it was cancelled and retimed to 0645 the next day.. So i asked my brother to dropped me off at CP, planning to shop for several items. My brother dropped me off readily, as he went about meeting his girlfriend.. The time alone had been a mental journey-comtemplative.reflective.

the story started earlier, just before we(my brother and i) headed to KK to catch the 1600 flight to Miri....

Early in the morning, my brother went to help at our soon-to-be home, so we planned to go around 1300 hour. i had a feeling that it wont be easy to escape my baby brother, as he had tagged along with me everywhere i go, since i arrived at home. Infact, he had "babyishly" put all his belongings in my bag, so that he can go with me "naik kapal to sarawak".

So when it was actually 1300 hour sharp, we were ready to go..my baby brother was already teary, hugging me, begging me to bring him along. I couldnt stand his crying, so i thought it would be easier to let him go with us, and after a few minutes we would send him back home...a strategy meant to sort of "cheated" him..Urgh,hate lying to minors.

But then, my brother had a better idea..it was to bring him to the nearest shop, to buy him an ice cream, or whatever it was that he fancied.. Yeah, he did fancy something but it was not the ice cream..It was the toys. by the times, he was done with the choosing and picking, it was already well after 1330 hour..By logic, now, i could safely say that, i had missed by 1600 hour flight.

it was well after 1345 hour when we finally headed off to KK, with mixed feeling..Although i was aware that the possibility to miss the flight was 99.99 percent, but still i didnt want to jump to conclusion so fast..i also didnt want my brother to drive like a lunatic just because of a flight..so, i stay calm and went about as if it was no big deal..i never stopped praying to Allah for mercy and miracles. After all, it was not as if we were late on purpose. our lateness was caused by our deeper empathy for our little brother..at least that was my justification..there was no use agonising about it anyway..better be safe than sorry.

it was 1545 hour when we reached the airport, so i dashed to the departure hall-check in counter, only to be told that: Cik, u punya flight cancelled ni. retimed pegi 6.45am, but u boleh check in sekarang...phew, that was a very good news for me. Praise be to Allah, the Almighty...i went about hugging my brother, happy for the twist of event.:o)

My reflection was:
when you have enough consideration for others, the universe will show even greater consideration for you.

a)i cant go anywhere during the holiday without my little brother tagging along, so i stayed home. In return, allah gave me plenty of times to shop for the things i needed while waiting for my retimed flight.

b)i had never really had a heart to heart talk with my brother for quite some times now, the retimed flight gave us spaces to do just that...to mend on broken strings..:o)

c)Should my 1600 hour flight was on, i would be stranded in Miri alone that night..and i wouldnt had the chance to meet my cousin in the airport the next morning, who sweetly bought me breakfast and saw that i got into a taxi safely to Pujut Terminal... (its not that i cant buy breakfast myself,im referring to the deed)

d) should my 1600 hour flight was on, i would be going solo from Miri to Mukah.. i found friends who were kind enough and let me tagged along with them until i reached Poly safely that evening.

It might be an insignificant account-but i am a sucker for kindness.Kindness that brings about positive energy into my sphere.

The conclusion is: when we are doing something good, why are we questioning what good things we will get in return?
Perhaps we concentrate so much on the idea of a much bigger return for the kindness, that we do not notice the smaller good things that staring us in the face.

even better: why we questioned "why" we need to do good things when everybody else is not doing any?
But then, everybody else is not you..so why compare?

so my reflection is: for every good thing you do, you will get abundant in return.:o)

so my mission: Think good things, do good things.:o)