Training thought

Taking in the solitary breakfast hour to pour my thoughts out.

i really need a medium to write my deep feeling by now. All the thoughts in my head that im sure everyone will find pretty boring to hear. All these heavy serious thinking about things in general. i had been compromising myself a lot. i never really talk about serious things because i always have the impression that no one would understand them. I talked about fancy, girlish and gay things because most people only prefer to hear the light stuffs. Not the heavier one. I never really have a friend who shared my serious venture. Maybe that's why i like being in lite class. I have the medium to purge my thought the best way i like it.

people are basically very pretensious nowadays. and that, i still find revolting. you dont even recognize the person you talked to everyday. Some people hide true colours behind the sweet smile and what seemed to be a very sympathetic countenance. each and everytime i have to remind myself that, i need to learn to trust people again. Trust that anything can happen. Your good friends today can be at any time, the person who betrays you. i am such a careful person nowadays. i might not have many friends to hang around with but i have a good night sleep. and fresh heart. You should learn from people everyday. Treat them how they deserved to treated as you go along. Not on the presumption that just because the first impression is good, then they are going to be that way forever. Yes, experience will improve our judgment. So does mine. Improving by leaps and down. Everyone in the end, or one of these days will get what they deserved. i pray for what best for them to happen.

maybe we started to grow up and therefore, we see more of the things that we usually just turn our blind eyes on. Perhaps our judgement get better too, so therefore we cant tolerate just "any" rubbish people throw at us.

i lost my train of thoughts again.