i am at home, having a 12 days holiday from the rat race.i arrived before dusk on saturday, and reached home at the wee hour of the next day. We went around town, shopping and had a pit stop at Tg Lipat for Seafood treats...and straight home afterwards.The next day balik kampung and after spending almost 5 hours at my father's home, we headed home againg.
Tomorrow,there will be a kenduri at our house, so, it would be quite eventful this week.There is not enough time to even catch my thought.Preferably.
On Friday, we planned to go swimming at the Hot Spring-for the sake of my baby brother-who had not been able to get Poring out of his mind since the first time my father took him there.
Saturday and Sunday are for weddings. My cousin's and my friend's wedding-nice dress-up event i have always like;o)
well, plans are already made for next week.so, hopefully, we can follow the tentative for next week.
May 31, 2010
May 26, 2010
i have you
i have you,
and it is all that matters,
you have made my dream easier to achieve
grateful is me
whom you have saved
from anguish and worry
you who in unlikely moment,
sprung up,
and has made all the difference.
you are my starting point,
my convenience
and my future.
you would be my forever and ever and after.
i would not stay away from you
until or unless you want me to.
you will always be my priority,
my interest,
and my entire devotion.
you are the beginning to no end...
and it is all that matters,
you have made my dream easier to achieve
grateful is me
whom you have saved
from anguish and worry
you who in unlikely moment,
sprung up,
and has made all the difference.
you are my starting point,
my convenience
and my future.
you would be my forever and ever and after.
i would not stay away from you
until or unless you want me to.
you will always be my priority,
my interest,
and my entire devotion.
you are the beginning to no end...
May 25, 2010
Funeral Blues
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
W.H.Auden
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
W.H.Auden
Change upon Change
Five months ago the stream did flow,
The lilies bloomed within the sedge,
And we were lingering to and fro,
Where none will track thee in this snow,
Along the stream, beside the hedge.
Ah, Sweet, be free to love and go!
For if I do not hear thy foot,
The frozen river is as mute,
The flowers have dried down to the root:
And why, since these be changed since May,
Shouldst thou change less than they.
And slow, slow as the winter snow
The tears have drifted to mine eyes;
And my poor cheeks, five months ago
Set blushing at thy praises so,
Put paleness on for a disguise.
Ah, Sweet, be free to praise and go!
For if my face is turned too pale,
It was thine oath that first did fail, --
It was thy love proved false and frail, --
And why, since these be changed enow,
Should I change less than thou.
-Elizabeth Barret Browning-
The lilies bloomed within the sedge,
And we were lingering to and fro,
Where none will track thee in this snow,
Along the stream, beside the hedge.
Ah, Sweet, be free to love and go!
For if I do not hear thy foot,
The frozen river is as mute,
The flowers have dried down to the root:
And why, since these be changed since May,
Shouldst thou change less than they.
And slow, slow as the winter snow
The tears have drifted to mine eyes;
And my poor cheeks, five months ago
Set blushing at thy praises so,
Put paleness on for a disguise.
Ah, Sweet, be free to praise and go!
For if my face is turned too pale,
It was thine oath that first did fail, --
It was thy love proved false and frail, --
And why, since these be changed enow,
Should I change less than thou.
-Elizabeth Barret Browning-
May 24, 2010
Events
Today was certainly full of events-if i may say that.
in the morning, i went to have breakfast with my friend at the canteen. Met with a certain someone. Actually, this story with him has started as early as April last year-the first time i reported for duty. i will see him from time to time, but i cant really say that i am close to him. There had always been a lot of exchange of banter between us. he is a very serious guy, that i only ever dare to talk to him if or when he started first. to be frank, he has all the criteria that i like in a man. There was a time, when i would meet him almost everyday-and i cant help but admire him for all the quality he has. Sometimes, he ignored me.There were times, when he wouldnt stop talking to me. All my friends are aware of this,and that becomes a point of discussion. i dont quite remember what triggered the talk on marriage, but suddenly he becomes very fond of saying..meminang,meminang,meminang. He can be playful, so i didnt actually take it seriously. So, this morning i purposely ignored him.He was talking to my friend. I didnt say a word.After a while, he began to ask me about when im going to get married. i just smiled. He asked me whether im still waiting for him to "masuk meminang". i smiled again. Playing coy a bit.;o)
i thought it was the end of the conversation, but when we were about to leave, sudddenly, he asked again-am i still waiting for him to "masuk meminang".there were just the three of us there-me,my friend and him.
Suddenly, he was explaining things-i am far, and it would be hard for us to be together-and if things are ok, would I be here with him-and his explanation ends with-tentu kamu tidak mahu tinggal disini-very sad note.He didnt give me any opportunity to say anything!Actually i dont want to say anything.my friend was very excited by now-and as soon as we reached the office, the news came out..To tell the truth,i like him-he is simple, driven, ambitious, kind,mature, modest and i only ever been near him once or twice-but i can see that he is protective. So what else can a girl like me want from a guy?
So, i think anybody who will eventually be his wife would be very lucky indeed.
Today was the meeting for exam-a meeting to-sort of-analyse the students' grade for this semester. some really awkward situation happened during the meeting. Some people were obsessed of lying that they didnt realise when enough is enough. But she was a real tough lady. Either she didnt know that everybody knew, she faked all the exam's grade or she just couldnt be bothered. How can you even pretend to be innocent when you were already caught red-handed?What happened to you?How did you survived 7 years of working if this is how you worked?It was not of any help that my friend made it very obvious that she was making a gross mistake by whispering to me over and again.it made me uncomfortable.i felt like shit sitting there. i felt like screaming-you know what, i dont care!!!!!!!!!!!!!I didnt look at anybody, i kept my eyes fixed on my papers. I hate being dragged along into somebody else's drama.
im going back early after all.i already changed my ticket, and i'll be home in no time.At least, another four days.
im waiting and hoping for something..Oh when can i have you?Huh
in the morning, i went to have breakfast with my friend at the canteen. Met with a certain someone. Actually, this story with him has started as early as April last year-the first time i reported for duty. i will see him from time to time, but i cant really say that i am close to him. There had always been a lot of exchange of banter between us. he is a very serious guy, that i only ever dare to talk to him if or when he started first. to be frank, he has all the criteria that i like in a man. There was a time, when i would meet him almost everyday-and i cant help but admire him for all the quality he has. Sometimes, he ignored me.There were times, when he wouldnt stop talking to me. All my friends are aware of this,and that becomes a point of discussion. i dont quite remember what triggered the talk on marriage, but suddenly he becomes very fond of saying..meminang,meminang,meminang. He can be playful, so i didnt actually take it seriously. So, this morning i purposely ignored him.He was talking to my friend. I didnt say a word.After a while, he began to ask me about when im going to get married. i just smiled. He asked me whether im still waiting for him to "masuk meminang". i smiled again. Playing coy a bit.;o)
i thought it was the end of the conversation, but when we were about to leave, sudddenly, he asked again-am i still waiting for him to "masuk meminang".there were just the three of us there-me,my friend and him.
Suddenly, he was explaining things-i am far, and it would be hard for us to be together-and if things are ok, would I be here with him-and his explanation ends with-tentu kamu tidak mahu tinggal disini-very sad note.He didnt give me any opportunity to say anything!Actually i dont want to say anything.my friend was very excited by now-and as soon as we reached the office, the news came out..To tell the truth,i like him-he is simple, driven, ambitious, kind,mature, modest and i only ever been near him once or twice-but i can see that he is protective. So what else can a girl like me want from a guy?
So, i think anybody who will eventually be his wife would be very lucky indeed.
Today was the meeting for exam-a meeting to-sort of-analyse the students' grade for this semester. some really awkward situation happened during the meeting. Some people were obsessed of lying that they didnt realise when enough is enough. But she was a real tough lady. Either she didnt know that everybody knew, she faked all the exam's grade or she just couldnt be bothered. How can you even pretend to be innocent when you were already caught red-handed?What happened to you?How did you survived 7 years of working if this is how you worked?It was not of any help that my friend made it very obvious that she was making a gross mistake by whispering to me over and again.it made me uncomfortable.i felt like shit sitting there. i felt like screaming-you know what, i dont care!!!!!!!!!!!!!I didnt look at anybody, i kept my eyes fixed on my papers. I hate being dragged along into somebody else's drama.
im going back early after all.i already changed my ticket, and i'll be home in no time.At least, another four days.
im waiting and hoping for something..Oh when can i have you?Huh
May 23, 2010
Lazy Sunday
Progressive
Today was good.by 0830 i was already on the move.the clothes were already dried out.
My breakfast was fried rice with fried fish and black bean,with a cup of Nescafe.
Around 1030, i was flipping through my FRP and watched a movie-Open Season 2. i would say, i like the first one better.
By 1100, TV was so boring. So i checked my mail, checked the FB and read some articles on the net. I met a person with diabetes this week.Being a sweet tooth myself, i couldnt help but wondered about all sorts of possibility. so, i checked articles about diabetes on the net,read about the symptoms.i was scared to death.Probably i should go and check my blood sugar.Of course, i didnt have any of the symptoms but, i guess prevention is better than cure. So, my new mission is to cut on the sweet things and on carbo. Actually in the past, whenever im on diet, i will cut on the sugar intake.But then, it lowered down my blood pressurre-made me dizzy all the time. so the key is to be moderate on everything.Through my observation, sugar also makes me gain weight faster.all the more reason to be in the watch out of sugar intake..huhu
In the afternoon,my aunt called. we talked about many things.She is my very best friend. She was with us since she was small, my gram(father's side) passed away when she was 3 years old. So, naturally she was living with my father(her older brother). In fact, everyone thinks that she is my older sister. She was in UM when i was in IIUM matric.and still in UM, when i was in IIUM Gombak. Imagine the times we were together. we have been through a lot together. during tough times, or happy times-always.Many happy memories. She is the only one person that i can be truly happy and thoroughly mad at the same time.She was such an optimist, but also a bitch(oops)when she is mad...i wouldnt want to be anywhere near her..hehe.Why i am babbling away about her?because i missed her, and was about to call her when my phone rang..what a nice coincidence.:o)i feel glad just talking to her.
My FRP is halfway done.it turned out that i forgot the attendance list on my desk. Hopefully i have enough focus to settle everything tomorrow. There is no point to agonise about it..Nothing can be done even if i worry about it. So tomorrow is it.
It is one more weekend before my leave.But my mind is already halfway across at home.
I.will.try.to.stay.focus.and.enjoy.the.office.for.the.time.being.
Today was good.by 0830 i was already on the move.the clothes were already dried out.
My breakfast was fried rice with fried fish and black bean,with a cup of Nescafe.
Around 1030, i was flipping through my FRP and watched a movie-Open Season 2. i would say, i like the first one better.
By 1100, TV was so boring. So i checked my mail, checked the FB and read some articles on the net. I met a person with diabetes this week.Being a sweet tooth myself, i couldnt help but wondered about all sorts of possibility. so, i checked articles about diabetes on the net,read about the symptoms.i was scared to death.Probably i should go and check my blood sugar.Of course, i didnt have any of the symptoms but, i guess prevention is better than cure. So, my new mission is to cut on the sweet things and on carbo. Actually in the past, whenever im on diet, i will cut on the sugar intake.But then, it lowered down my blood pressurre-made me dizzy all the time. so the key is to be moderate on everything.Through my observation, sugar also makes me gain weight faster.all the more reason to be in the watch out of sugar intake..huhu
In the afternoon,my aunt called. we talked about many things.She is my very best friend. She was with us since she was small, my gram(father's side) passed away when she was 3 years old. So, naturally she was living with my father(her older brother). In fact, everyone thinks that she is my older sister. She was in UM when i was in IIUM matric.and still in UM, when i was in IIUM Gombak. Imagine the times we were together. we have been through a lot together. during tough times, or happy times-always.Many happy memories. She is the only one person that i can be truly happy and thoroughly mad at the same time.She was such an optimist, but also a bitch(oops)when she is mad...i wouldnt want to be anywhere near her..hehe.Why i am babbling away about her?because i missed her, and was about to call her when my phone rang..what a nice coincidence.:o)i feel glad just talking to her.
My FRP is halfway done.it turned out that i forgot the attendance list on my desk. Hopefully i have enough focus to settle everything tomorrow. There is no point to agonise about it..Nothing can be done even if i worry about it. So tomorrow is it.
It is one more weekend before my leave.But my mind is already halfway across at home.
I.will.try.to.stay.focus.and.enjoy.the.office.for.the.time.being.
May 22, 2010
Revolutionary Road
i was moved by Leo Dicaprio's wrath in this movie. i was moved by the emotion. The purging away of emotional distress is so real that i was glued in front of the TV the entire time.
i like the emotion.i like the communicational aspect.i like the maturity in the characters. i feel desperately engaged with the conflicts. i like the portrayal of married life-seemed realistic to me.
Basically, it's about marriage life.Married people say things they dont mean and do things to hurt the other one. Tolerance, passion and lots of give and take, understanding and communication skills are very important in order to survive.Mostly, there is no room for selfishness.
Kate Winslet and Leo Dicaprio portrayed the conflict in a very convincing ways.
i guess married life is that challenging-there is no room for failure.you must always try your best to cooperate. Always at your best for everything.
but somehow, married people forget how to say/show how much the other one meant to him/her-that's why sometimes some events can be interpreted differently, and conflict started.
after i watched the movie, i realised that i dont want to be an irrationally stubborn person, and i would try to stay positive.
This was a revolutionary experience.
i like the emotion.i like the communicational aspect.i like the maturity in the characters. i feel desperately engaged with the conflicts. i like the portrayal of married life-seemed realistic to me.
Basically, it's about marriage life.Married people say things they dont mean and do things to hurt the other one. Tolerance, passion and lots of give and take, understanding and communication skills are very important in order to survive.Mostly, there is no room for selfishness.
Kate Winslet and Leo Dicaprio portrayed the conflict in a very convincing ways.
i guess married life is that challenging-there is no room for failure.you must always try your best to cooperate. Always at your best for everything.
but somehow, married people forget how to say/show how much the other one meant to him/her-that's why sometimes some events can be interpreted differently, and conflict started.
after i watched the movie, i realised that i dont want to be an irrationally stubborn person, and i would try to stay positive.
This was a revolutionary experience.
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