reflection

there are so many things to be grateful about life-the bad or the better one.Everything that happens in our life has reasons of its own.sometime, we are too damn eager to judge things without knowing that it can be a good sign all the way.
My life has not been a sugar coated journey.it is full of events-sadness and happiness that leads to maturity. one that has shades of regrets and gratitude.
the first phase out of home was the most trying time.iam trying to move and adapt. and at the same time applying principles and familiarity into it.the result is quite frustrating.
At such a young age of 18, i couldnt understand the exchange of info and change of environment.Many things happened that added chaos into my life.family crisis, identity chaos, heartbroken and too much thinking led to a very solitary and lonely life.
Heartbroken, serious but determined, i began a new phase. i began turning in to myself and preferred being different from other people-which made everything so solemn and sombre.it was so hollow.funny why i cant remember how it felt nowadays.
i started as a stubborn cynic who hates everything about life.i hate tv because there are too many soap operas. and i hate the world just because it is different from narrow minded outlook.(at that time)
But as only time can do, i grow better in every second.As i preferred to see it from different direction, and willing to learn as i go, things get easier and simpler-everyday becomes more meaningful and strangely comforting.My comfort zone widen and beautiful things spramg out of everywhere.
Nowadays..still am a cynic,serious not the least but more willing to open up to possibility and challenge.im done with complaining and whinning about unfair life.Thanks to all the lessons from the world.after all it is the greatest teacher of all.
The thing is you cant possibly turns everything to your favour.you can only manipulate it to serve the end that you desire.Why would you want to change the world if u remain static?
of course..in every story or journey, while you are busy finding the way to yourself..there are people who understand and support your cause..but many would also joke and make fun of your shortcomings and trouble.--infact almost everything you do.
even Allah promises in the holy Quran: (al-Insyirah: dan sesiapa yang akan menyanggah janji Allah bahawa dia menjamin akan mengangkat setiap masalah kita?Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan)