yes-to-day

actually,it means yesterday and today..but im trying to create something that is different from everyday thing.so this word is what i came with...

start with yesterday
yesterday, i only have class in the morning.after that, i went to the pantry and stapled all the final test papers there.without disturbance..i really like sitting there because the aircond in the office has not been working properly since April.and the pantry is so cold..feel like moving my desk to that place forever..hehe
in the morning i was trying to use the paper cutter which i failed miserably at first..and all the boys in who were in the office at that time laughed at me.but later, they offered to help when i have already completed the task at hand..huhu.i like the good spirit.;o)
the one class i have in the morning is one of my favourite class..but some of them just cant be nice to me.i did feel tersinggung sikit.but that's what children do..act childishly almost all the time.biarlah habis di situ saja.malas mau panjang2 cerita.
but actually yesterday was an uncomfortable day.sebab ada orang terlebih bergurau..saya yg blur ni pun tidak faham whether this person bergurau OR dia memang betul-betul maksudkan apa yang dia cakap.so, dia tidak berani bertentang mata dengan saya.i wondered whether he was drunk at the time he said to me those things..or simply segan..tidak taulah.the reason why i spent the morning session at the pantry was because i dont want him or me to feel the tension.huhu

today,supposed to have 2 exams but one class rescheduled their exam to Thursday..budak-budak sekarang..bukan kita yang control dorg..they all have the power to control everything..budak2 bertuah betul.
and while i jaga my students from the other class..suddenly i got this weird feeling of empathy creeping in.rasa sayu n kesian. i look at my students and wonder what kind of life they are living?what kind of home they r having?what kind of people they have in their life?and are they happy..i dont know but something just trigger my train of thought towards it...it only makes me determine to improve my teachings.so they dont get boring, and feel that my class is a must-go class, one that makes them feel comfortable and enjoy learning..someone that they could trust,insyallah.
i think one of the problems with the youth in Poli Mukah is that we, the adult concentrate so much on the formality, so much occupied with teacher-student-school environment that we forget that WE ARE HUMAN who needs human contact..if you go to class because the regulation made it compulsory that you do..and then study-study-study with no actual contact-then of course, they will feel that you are nothing to them..
i want to be somebody that help to improve on situation..if not big then in a personal way. Insyaallah..