Feb 26, 2010

Rambling again

Today i had a full day.i was one of Prep and Tech JK for Maulidur Rasul..so there are loads of things to be done. This morning, i joined the perarakan..and it was not in vain as we won peserta paling ramai and peserta terbaik. So all my busy-ness paid.One thing when you worked with guys are, they are very fond of making everything up to you. They trusted you to make decision about something they dont want to do. So all this while, i feel that my time was occupied with figuring the small details, while my counterpart prepared for the rest.But, mind you, small details mean you have to figure every details that should be there before the big day. so, yeah..i learned a lot of management.Thanks to the students.They made me feel that everything is possible. Although, they were usually late, but they delivered. and creative. So, any other things is unimportant for me.
Tomorrow is the big night.and i spent the entire afternoon with a bunch of very helpful and creative students.I didnt quite like one of them, but what the heck?everybody was trying to be cooperative.

There are things that i found funny. The other day, i felt irritated about a person in our office. some students came to the office asking for MUET slip. So, he was halfway through.Infact, he had already given one of the students' slip. i just came in into the office and was about to sit, when suddenly he called my name, and gestured me to handle the process. it was in the afternoon, and i was tired. Without saying anything, he practically ordered me "with hand gesture" to handle the process.
i was angry because he "ordered" me to do that. and i was also angry because i feel that he did that because i am a girl.i was mad beyond word. He can always said that he didnt know the procedure, but heck, he had already given one of the students her slip?At least he could have said "please", or say something..but he didnt say anything..i told my bestmate about the incident.and he said that i was trying to complicate a simple situation..and also because i was just being sensitive.what more can i say? so i kept quiet and try to forget the incident. Perhaps it's true that, man and woman's definition of emotional differed,so when we are being passionate, the guy would say that we are being emotional. And when they are emotional, they termed it as passionate..whatever.
But, one of my friend suddenly commented something about this guy-the same thing-he like to order everybody around, especially the girls in our office to do something for him.Better still, one of the senior in the office also said that he asked her to do something for him, and when the thing turned out wrongly, he pointed the mistake to her infront of the KJ. The funny thing is, if my impression of him was unrealistic and emotional, why should everybody complaint about the same thing about him? So now, should i say i know so? Needless, isnt it..it is proven.

one sad thing, i failed my table test. it means, i have to take the test again sooner or later.it dampened my spirit a little. That would teach me next time to not rush everything..next time,i should take it seriously, and not just read the book in between marking assignment..failing is not a familiar thing to me, that's why i feel really distracted by this one.

im busy, i failed my test but im smiling...so, doesnt that mean that im in stress mode?where my mood do not matched my situation? sounds like stress to me..

nothing that i cant handle i supposed...(Insya Allah)

2 comments:

gha said...

very typical male chauvinist

aznah said...

probly, because they all have been living in the world where the women think that it's ok to do that.while i..am living in a different world..or maybe different mindset..tough!