at lost

it started off with Miri.
all of a sudden, something bubbles up out of nowhere.suddenly many things come into perspective,i noticed something unthink of is happening and there's no stopping it..
something is definitely happening to my dear friend that i cant even begin to digest.
i suspected that she is playing with fire. i never imagined that she is capable of anything as heartwrenching as that.i feel a certain pain in my heart for the fact that the guy is not the kind of guy who would treat someone right..as you,my dear friend, by now..must have realised.
i feel sad because she chooses to do that when his better half is fighting for life and is conceiving the first one.
i dont hate you dear, for whatever it is that might have happened.Because there's going to be one time in our life that things happened and we cant control it. i am only disappointed because you lower down your standard for someone unworthy.
you said you say yes to my question, because no matter what you answered it wouldnt mean anything..as people will continue talking and they cant be stopped.That people naturally like to gossip.I wish you would, dearest.Because there's nothing funny about it.it is not funny anymore.it only opens doors to dissenssion. so if you generally dont want to generate gossips and talks,or if it were generally not true..why would you want to be in the limelight?
im so desperate for you to say that all's well,but days after days you only choose to show that you're in it-For Better or For Worst..what an irony..

it's up to you, dear.whatever you decide for yourself.For one must lies in the bed one's made..

im sad and regretful that it happened to you..but happy if it means happiness for you..

Take Care