Bittersweet

The fourth day of raya.

Not much to talk about. Went here and there for open house. This year i managed to find kuah kacang and sambal terung..my favourite among all. Very delicious. above all, hari raya was celebrated in moderation. What with project A ongoing, and some other things that do not permit us to spend money on a large scale. so basically,in moderation..

my mind is thinking about some unfinished business. i was wondering about EEP and EAPc-which to say the least-nobody informed me anything about where or when i would be for my first course.while my other friends had already been notified.So what am i supposed to think?I was given a leeway for hari raya? but my other muslim friends had already been notified.so i dont know what to think..

on another note...
everybody at home's favourite question for hari raya this year was..bila lagi?(get married), which really was beyond answer. My answer:No and Not yet.They said, im choosy..yes, i am. after all this is a big decision. this is a commitment for the whole life time..Is it asking too much to need a time to think it through?to make a good decision? This is like an investment. cant possibly be rash and impatience. Cant possibly be unemotional and just go through with the marriage without any ounce of responsibility or respect at all. Just because you think that, it is going to be good because everyone else approved,and you are happy because you are with the crowd, then where is the satisfaction? what's the point of being in a relationship where you think that you love the person, but cant really honour the it? you cant really be happy with him?cant really say that you are happy and not having any regret afterward? you are with this person, but think about other possibilities? I have many question which nobody wants to answer, or do not have the answer. and i cant really ask the questions because they will think that i think too much, too serious or plain freak..but heck, why wouldnt i? this is not as if we are playing games..this is for real!

Enough on that.. But still i dont mind they poking their nose on my life..i found it amusing. I just follow through with their planning on setting me up with someone. In the end im the one who is going to make the decision. i just smiled a sweet smile and agreed.

the time is really flying!so fast that i almost couldnt catch up..