can't be serious??

as many things are completed, many new things started.

The atmosphere is tensed and highly explosive.

My group in Kamsis changed from group 8 to 1..again. So far, i have been relocated 3 times. Last night i'm on duty. And tonight im up again, because of that middle-of-the-month reshuffle.I started to have a bad feeling when the TKF called to inform that i would be on duty again tonight. She said that, she and the KF had decided to relocate me to group 8. She was asking whether i would have any objection..Oh, i thought the question came before they made it official and published it in the web-mail.And had i objected, would it be of any use?Obviously not.and the bad feeling came with the question: why every time they reshuffle, everybody else stay in their own group and i to another? My ready answer: i am lesser complication, unlike other people who would kicked and screamed..

While on the way to some place today, a person was talking about my x-bestmate. How he was this and that. My first impression was, she mentioned him all too many times in our conversation. In fact the whole conversation was about him. She was talking specifically about his uncooperative-ness, but i wondered why she would talked about him to me. She knew well, that in the first place he is a taboo..Funny:o).
But, i was glad i didn't react or overreact. As she mentioned his flaws all through the conversation, i made a point to comment on our job specification. Nothing personal. I don't trust her. She was saying this and that to me about him, but when i saw her talking to him, none of the things she said materialized. I hope i had made an impression already. i wont be dragged into a conversation badmouthing him, or praising him. Neutral is my stand, TQVM. And she in the first place shouldn't think that just because we have started conversing again, that everything can be carried off from where we left of. Not anytime soon.

i feel that there is something amiss somewhere. But i can't figure out what, or why. I dont want to ask question because im afraid that people might say that im paranoid. But there is certainly a bad vibe everywhere, and it disturbed my inner peace. I wonder what could other people knew that i don't know?


In each and every prayers, i pray to Allah to guide me through difficult time, and to make the burden of responsibility be bearable, and to protect me from something i have no knowledge about. I pray for His Mercy to keep me going strong. He knows best.