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I am enjoying my blissful holiday with my family, attending family gathering or simply walking to pasar malam. i won't say without any responsibility. I am responsible as a daughter and sister. Basic. I get involved or rather on purpose participated in siblings' quarrel-nothing worse-gaduh-gaduh manja type of things-because i enjoyed it. i feel that nothing has changed.Mum still pretty much treats me like i am 17. my brothers are still fun to be around with. At least that the last year i spend with mum-when i was 17. ten long years ago.:o)

Mum is feeding me with all the food that are hard to resist-on request or not.i eat like i have not been eating for years.i appreciate the love, and it taste lovely too. who would and could resist it?Not me. And as a bonus, my grandmother is here. i was living with her when i was small. She is among the closest persons to me, and practically watched me grows up.So,at noon i have to eat lunch to accompany her, and again at dinner.

The truth is: i miss this normal feeling of being simple and no concern about a thing.i had not had this feeling for a long time. Now that everything is okay again, my feeling is coming back to me. the healthy feeling of being able to accept myself. my self confidence is back, so here i am. basking in the moment.Thank you Lord.

My brother got married on Saturday. and my cousins-whom i would say meant well- asked me when they can meet their future cousin in law. With every confidence, i answered: not anytime soon, because i am still single. That is a liberation. Being able to tell the truth. i dont want to misled anyone with empty words. I am a confident girl, and being alone without any boyfriend is no crime.It is a liberty. i have had enough of lies, or liar. if i would stop it. It should start with me.I don't need sympathy.But they insisted on offering sympathy, so i played along:o)

I just gone through so many things the second half time of the year. and things could get worst in the future, but i pray and give my complete surrender to Allah.May Allah make easy my endeavour. I never wish bad things to happen to other people, still many bad things come my ways.But it is a test of character. As long as i know what i am doing,it doesnt really matter what other people do.I believe in karma.and i also believe in God's mercy. I'll just do the best i can to be better. Insyaallah

I pray for Allah's mercy and blessing.May Allah bless my two good friends for standing besides me through the hard times. He is the best dispenser of affair.