i feel loaded with restless energy,thoughts and dissatisfaction..
Aug 25, 2010
Aug 23, 2010
i was thinking...
Twist and turn, twist and turn..and it all coming back to the starting point.
August started well enough for me. For a start, a conflict that has been dragging long enough was finally settled. I knew what i wanted to know, and was confident that thing was going to be better, which it did at first. At least, i am sure that i got my bestmate back. This time, i can feel the openness as we discussed about everything under the sun.. Though to be honest, my feeling was no longer the same feeling i once had for him. and i am happy for the chance to tell him everything i wanted to tell, and everything that i preferred-which was actually a little bit contrastive to what he had in mind. Im not the kind who would stay with a person who claimed to be in a relationship with someone else, and think that he could have the advantage of a girlfriend(me) at the same time. I prefer to stay out.But the main point was, the conflict was settled.
i was pissed off because there are some people, whose hobby were talking about other people's life. And when you confronted them, they get mad at you right back. very good indeed, May God blessed you. and even more pissed with people who have no sense of humour whose hobby were overeacting at any news they heard. And i am even more pissed at myself for my high tolerance of these people.I wondered how in the first place, i ever befriended them...Hmm,that's me..always have the knack for meeting the "right " kind of people for friends..Always at my best!
Hah!i dont know whether to laugh or to cry...
August started well enough for me. For a start, a conflict that has been dragging long enough was finally settled. I knew what i wanted to know, and was confident that thing was going to be better, which it did at first. At least, i am sure that i got my bestmate back. This time, i can feel the openness as we discussed about everything under the sun.. Though to be honest, my feeling was no longer the same feeling i once had for him. and i am happy for the chance to tell him everything i wanted to tell, and everything that i preferred-which was actually a little bit contrastive to what he had in mind. Im not the kind who would stay with a person who claimed to be in a relationship with someone else, and think that he could have the advantage of a girlfriend(me) at the same time. I prefer to stay out.But the main point was, the conflict was settled.
i was pissed off because there are some people, whose hobby were talking about other people's life. And when you confronted them, they get mad at you right back. very good indeed, May God blessed you. and even more pissed with people who have no sense of humour whose hobby were overeacting at any news they heard. And i am even more pissed at myself for my high tolerance of these people.I wondered how in the first place, i ever befriended them...Hmm,that's me..always have the knack for meeting the "right " kind of people for friends..Always at my best!
Hah!i dont know whether to laugh or to cry...
Aug 22, 2010
Updatez
Life gets complicated everyday-full of twist and turn..pleasant and unpleasant or plain crazy.Everything is in the package called LIFE. Have to accept-open the package to know what's in it-and try to deal with the surprises or the shocks of finding what's in it. No time to complaint..in the end it's all about the strategies you employ. it is in the strategy, people...
Done and finished quite a number of things:
a) completed Unit 3 for the new communicative module
b) Manage to give out-sort of- a take home tasks for my semester one students.
c) Manage to mark assignments of my sem 2 students.
d) Succesful experiment of karipap for majlis berbuka puasa for my Jab-with the help of my students of course-immensely grateful for that, considering that no one else from the Jab. showed up on the day of the majlis.Waiting anxiously for my KJ's comment..huhu. Anyway, it's the effort that mattered..hehehe
e) manage to work my brain off some task for the new communicative module:reaction paper-phew,that was a real challenge. Nobody was really sure what to do. New one from the Ministry. Great Job u guys!
Things/events pending:
a)Committee for the coming Kolokium-the research and development unit
b)Kem Kemuyang-kem Pemantapan Personaliti for students-as a secretary, there are tons of reporting to be done.and this one i will start after i came back from the EEP-Training for Trainer Course-which will start today.
c)Project for my sem 4 students-mock interview and mock meeting
d)updating some things-kualiti jab
e) start driving class-after cuti hari raya, definitely. wich reminds me i havent order any kek lapis from my friend. I will after i came back next week..Promises,promises..huhu
i find it extremely comforting to write in my blog. Nowadays, talking to people get me fed-up..because some of them are real pain in the a**.So, for that..Thank you my dear Blog. Without you, i would be suffocated with my own thought.
Done and finished quite a number of things:
a) completed Unit 3 for the new communicative module
b) Manage to give out-sort of- a take home tasks for my semester one students.
c) Manage to mark assignments of my sem 2 students.
d) Succesful experiment of karipap for majlis berbuka puasa for my Jab-with the help of my students of course-immensely grateful for that, considering that no one else from the Jab. showed up on the day of the majlis.Waiting anxiously for my KJ's comment..huhu. Anyway, it's the effort that mattered..hehehe
e) manage to work my brain off some task for the new communicative module:reaction paper-phew,that was a real challenge. Nobody was really sure what to do. New one from the Ministry. Great Job u guys!
Things/events pending:
a)Committee for the coming Kolokium-the research and development unit
b)Kem Kemuyang-kem Pemantapan Personaliti for students-as a secretary, there are tons of reporting to be done.and this one i will start after i came back from the EEP-Training for Trainer Course-which will start today.
c)Project for my sem 4 students-mock interview and mock meeting
d)updating some things-kualiti jab
e) start driving class-after cuti hari raya, definitely. wich reminds me i havent order any kek lapis from my friend. I will after i came back next week..Promises,promises..huhu
i find it extremely comforting to write in my blog. Nowadays, talking to people get me fed-up..because some of them are real pain in the a**.So, for that..Thank you my dear Blog. Without you, i would be suffocated with my own thought.
Aug 16, 2010
As it turns...
As it turns around, you showed who you really are.
a complete ridiculously, irresponsible , unthinking person.you dont care about any single damned thing!so what is the hue about you dont want "your name to be ruined by some bloody stuffs"?! Now, that i know what you are all about, it is easier to leave you for the betterment of my future.
To hell with all your "pretended" social decorum. Because they all are mere rubbishes and bullshits.
a complete ridiculously, irresponsible , unthinking person.you dont care about any single damned thing!so what is the hue about you dont want "your name to be ruined by some bloody stuffs"?! Now, that i know what you are all about, it is easier to leave you for the betterment of my future.
To hell with all your "pretended" social decorum. Because they all are mere rubbishes and bullshits.
Aug 9, 2010
Many things happened this past week, and i decided to be positive about everything. I dont want to be clouded in unhappy mood.or be regretful about a thing. I want to enjoy everything in front of me, without any regret about the past. i want to continue looking forward, and forget about the past-no matter how much i had valued it.i am committed to my own word-and back down is not one of it..i planned to follow through. No matter how many of the things that i valued that i would lost.
Ramadhan is just around the corner. With hope that i would be able to internalize goodness and be able to improve myself in more than a way.Insya Allah.
im happy for the chance to express my feeling fully. and for the chance to say what i truly feel about something or towards someone..for the might to let go or accept something in totality.
im happy.
Ramadhan is just around the corner. With hope that i would be able to internalize goodness and be able to improve myself in more than a way.Insya Allah.
im happy for the chance to express my feeling fully. and for the chance to say what i truly feel about something or towards someone..for the might to let go or accept something in totality.
im happy.
Aug 3, 2010
505
I'm going back to 505,
If its a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive,
In my imagination you're waiting lying on your side,
With your hands between your thighs,
Stop and wait a sec,
Oh when you look at me like that my darling,
What did you expect,
I probably still adore you with you hand around my neck,
Or I did last time I checked,
Not shy of a spark,
A knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark,
Frightened by the bite though its no harsher than the bark,
Middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start,
But I crumble completely when you cry,
It seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye,
Im always just about to go and spoil a suprise,
Take my hands off of your eyes too soon,
(arctic monkey)
If its a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive,
In my imagination you're waiting lying on your side,
With your hands between your thighs,
Stop and wait a sec,
Oh when you look at me like that my darling,
What did you expect,
I probably still adore you with you hand around my neck,
Or I did last time I checked,
Not shy of a spark,
A knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark,
Frightened by the bite though its no harsher than the bark,
Middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start,
But I crumble completely when you cry,
It seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye,
Im always just about to go and spoil a suprise,
Take my hands off of your eyes too soon,
(arctic monkey)
Aug 1, 2010
Nice thought
kadang-kadang
kita cuba memuaskan hati orang lain
sedangkan
selalu kita abaikan kehendak hati sendiri
kadang-kadang
kita asyik mendengar kata mereka kerana takut dikata
sedangkan
kata diri sendiri diendahkan
kadang-kadang
kita sengaja membenarkan situasi supaya perbuatan itu nampak benar
sedangkan
kadang-kadang itu sedang menghancurkan apa yang telah kita miliki
dan
kadang-kadang
kita sengaja lupa apa yang dibelakang
kerana ingin cepat melangkah ke hadapan...
.......perlukah kita mengikut kata2 dan kehendak org lain? supaya kita sama standard, ada geng, ikut aliran?
men.S.A.M.P.A.H.kan mereka yg meng.H.U.K.U.M.i
(taken from tulank rusuque)
All the blogs in my blog rolls are my favourite. iam a fan of their style of writing..so sometimes i went around and quoted directly from them what i myself cant clearly expressed in my writing.. This one was a real nice one from my friend. So TEPAT DAN MENGENA...i like the sentiment, i like the style and i like the tearing effect in this piece..
Or maybe because, i like it because it slapped me right in the face for always ignoring my ever so true intuition...
kita cuba memuaskan hati orang lain
sedangkan
selalu kita abaikan kehendak hati sendiri
kadang-kadang
kita asyik mendengar kata mereka kerana takut dikata
sedangkan
kata diri sendiri diendahkan
kadang-kadang
kita sengaja membenarkan situasi supaya perbuatan itu nampak benar
sedangkan
kadang-kadang itu sedang menghancurkan apa yang telah kita miliki
dan
kadang-kadang
kita sengaja lupa apa yang dibelakang
kerana ingin cepat melangkah ke hadapan...
.......perlukah kita mengikut kata2 dan kehendak org lain? supaya kita sama standard, ada geng, ikut aliran?
men.S.A.M.P.A.H.kan mereka yg meng.H.U.K.U.M.i
(taken from tulank rusuque)
All the blogs in my blog rolls are my favourite. iam a fan of their style of writing..so sometimes i went around and quoted directly from them what i myself cant clearly expressed in my writing.. This one was a real nice one from my friend. So TEPAT DAN MENGENA...i like the sentiment, i like the style and i like the tearing effect in this piece..
Or maybe because, i like it because it slapped me right in the face for always ignoring my ever so true intuition...
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