another one

went to Taklimat PPPT today with one of my colleagues.

i dont know but i feel that im not as ambitious as i think i am. as the pensyarah kanan briefed us about the kenaikan pangkat and everything, i have a weird feeling of just wanting to sit in the corner and do nothing.
all the talks of being in the higher position-what with responsibility and some of the things you need to do...it gets me nervous.
probably i dont have enough faith in myself.i need time to get used to everything before i can decide what to do. i need time to prove to myself that im going to be just fine doing things such as that.i get discourage by high expectation. i prefer to do it slowly but surely.
i dont want to rush into something for fear that im going to screw it.But then again, i think it is the sense of failure that gets me nervous.
or again, probably im so very simple minded that im afraid to try thing out.
but the point is, im scared about failing.and im scared that i wont perform to the best of my ability.