void and empty

I'm having fun this week.
almost every evening i went out and played squash with my friend. Like badminton,it is very easy to get better in squash.What you need is focus, and of course to import your badminton skill while playing. i was once a badminton player-second best in my zone-so,squash is not a big problem.But i have to play several times just to build up on stamina first.But i love it.it purged the stressness out of my system

i go out a lot these lately with my friends. i enjoyed spending times with them because they are more matured and they treated me differently from my friends of the same age. They are very nice people-they dont talk nonsense, and they dont get mad easily,and they didnt ignore people for no reason.They are always talking about the future, and i feel better with them. i love the good spirit actually. i love the maturity. Most of all, i just love being with them.

i got angry at my students. The first one, my semester one students were quite noisy.as i was explaining something about culture-we were in oral communication topic-i kept hearing murmurs here and there.i was trying very hard to point something at them..and they keep on talking. so, i wiped the board, i took my books and left the class-without any word. they laughed at me!and i keep on walking,sit quietly in my office and ignored my surrounding. i thought i was angry.but when i think about it, i was just boring and i couldnt go through with teaching on that day. I am bored.bored.bored. The second time, i asked one of my students to inform his friends that im going to be a little late.and he ignored my instruction.One of the students smsed me about that. i am angry because he ignored my instruction.My problem is i hate being ignored-reason or no reason. it drives me mad!

i was surrounded by people, and people who are genuine and nice.and i dont know why-deep in my heart-i still feel void and empty...