Royal Rambling

Thinking mode.

seriously,someone has to put some kind of a badge spelled "thinker" to me.i think a lot.

i was at my cousin's majlis berzanji and berinai a few hours ago. Seeing her go through the routines before the day, which is today.All the exhaustion and preparation triggered my train of thought.as usual. we are of the same age. We went to the same kindergarden, and we were in the same school.Only i transferred to another school in standard 3.We were at the same secondary school, with different circle of friend. She is always with her sweet, cute friends. My friends are the center of attention in school. But we are very close, because my mum and her mum are related. and our family is those kinds who always stick together..monthly gathering and all.so, we never lost track of each other.
i enjoyed family gathering. the one reason why i love being at home. so many things to talk about. so many things to gossip.hehe
Both my cousins of the same age(father and mother's side)are getting married in this month of June.as expected the limelight is on me.The elders started to fire questions.When is yours?or You are next on the line..huh.i just dont want to answer questions.i seriously think it is not the right time to ask such question. to be honest, when i started working one year ago, i thought of ending my solo journey when i am 27 years old. But later on i feel that i enjoy working so much, i love the satisfaction i feel when im working. My commitment to what i do has built up so i decided to postpone the dateline.i dont think it is the right time.What's wrong with being single anyway?
Seeing her with all the exhaustion and adjustment she needs to do later on just made me shied away. Huh, i dont think i have the might to endure yet.There are many responsibility unfulfilled, many obligations, and many things to do before i can think of settling down. To say the least..For the time being, marriage life doesnt suit me yet.
Everybody bombarded me with the same question,but i am afraid if i answered truthfully, they wont understand.and what is the use of explaining something that they wont understand anyway?so, they can think and answer their own question. I have nothing to say about what they think.period
my cousin introduced me to a friend of her a few month ago. and he is going to be here. So, i guess all i have to do is show some courtesy.i dont expect her to go to that length for me. oh well,there is nothing wrong with friendship.;o)

All i can say is i will be ready when i am ready. When or how long is for me to know.