Definitely one of the days that sleep is the very last thing on my mind.my eyes are still fresh, no sign of sleepiness yet. My mind is still racing with things to write and things to do for days ahead..I have tons of unfinished business, which im hoping i would be able to sort out before my break for hari raya. im trying to fully occupied my times to finishing all the works.
I am not in a good mood today. I am physically tired from the journey home after the course. With my big bags full of things, i certainly feel tired. Infact, i have been sleeping a lot since then. So this morning, when my colleague told me that something that should be done last week is going to start today, and i have to be there because i dont have anything to do...it simply turned my mood inside out. It turned out that the job was supposedly done by all the committees and not exclusive to just one person..My frustration was building up because, there were only the two of us were there, and after 1 bloody hour, then two persons turned up to help..By that time, i was beyond emotion..i feel..again..pushed doing some odd job because they think i can be push around..Hell and Damnation! and it wasnt a great help to listen to other people's lamentation about someone else...Dont you have any consideration for my feeling? emotionally drained...
im upset because, people think that they always knew what is the best for me and seemed to be contented to just make the decision for me..which i hate so much. and i hate myself for not being able to stand up!
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