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Seriously lazy this morning. i postponed almost everything. Honestly, i havent started anything serious this morning. Plain lazy. i am experiencing a feeling where i am actually feeling great but somewhat hesitant. i don't even understand why. As if i can't enjoy what i am doing. This feeling again.Huh

i always pride myself of being able to do what i like, when i like it, and with whosoever that i preferred to spend my time with. But nowadays, i feel stressed out because i have to be with this person doing this and that, have to be this that, have to think like this and that-well, that's in no way fun.That is very restricting. Although, i understand the mother-tiger protective nature, it doesn't mean that i agree with what she do. I hate the protection.And her being so protective, she also commented on my close friendship with my friend-saying that i should stay away from him. Why on earth did i listen to it in the first place???!Why i let other people dictate what i should do again???!
Now, that is one source of stress. If i want to spend time with him, i have to do it in a hush-hush away as if i am guilty of committing crime.i'm tired of being tied up. again. i like it free style

i never have to report to anyone before. and im not going to start now. but, i'm just too soft hearted to say NO.