Will power and Miracles

I dont know how i should start my entry on willpower and miracles, or what to write. Knowing that most of the times, it is more of will power rather than miracles.

Yes, Miracles do happen. It is the least expected thing that happens to you when you think everything is almost impossible. it can be an individual or thing. It can be a situation. Or it can be a simple thought. There's no telling where or how it happens, but you will know it when it does happen.

This morning i went over to meet a friend from another department. That walk i walked to that department back and forth gives me a perspective that, until now, i didn't realize or choose to be blind about. I met a few students on the way who wished me Happy Teacher's Day. It made me happy, but im not the kind who do something so that people may praise me for what i do. You know, the exact translation of You know what you are doing, and it's enough in your heart knowing that you are doing your best? i never care for praises. It doesn't define me in anyway. It is just so moving to see the fruit of what you plant blossomed into something real beautiful. As if you can really see your brand stamped on them. And that's making me proud and happy. That's magical. The Miracle is: i believe it's God's way of saying goodness is everywhere. See it, feel it. understand it. Understand it. understand it. To say the least, i don't really know what happened during my walk this morning, but good feeling seeps in, and i am grateful for that epiphany.

Of will power. What of Will Power? i always believe that whatever we do in this world is done by sheer will power. Will power to carry on. Will power to do something. will power to be. i was about to whine- i have no energy to carry on, all i have is the will power to do. But then, what is will power if not energy? The truth is, i have the will power alright, i just lacked the passion. and i used to be a real ardent and passionate girl. sometimes i wonder what happened to that positive, confident, and passionate girl? Something is eating it. and that's what i found sad. To lost your former self and be replaced with someone half your former self is sad.

But then again, i have done the best i could under my current situation. and i have nothing to feel sorry about. Everything is progressing, everything is forming into shape.And to think again, i never lost anything that's mine. Everything that is not in my life is not meant for me, and i knew it right from the start. i compromise myself so much. I compromise my standards so much. So here i am asking myself: Why i waste my precious time being depressed, stressful? Why i waste my time being insecure of my own capability? Why i waste my confident when i know pretty well what i can do and therefore feeds on other people's mean intention towards me? I dont know. I'm just a very insecure young girl i guess.

So, something has to start somewhere. i have to change my perspective, improve my self- esteem and confident. Because, if not people will take my insecurity as an incapability. So i have to try. Something has to start somewhere.

Of will power and miracle: Something has to start somewhere.