Long and satisfying journey

Who would've thought that i would be able to drive from Mukah -Miri  and back without so much of incident? it's a long journey but im satisfied. Though, some people would prefer that they drove, but hey, if i listened to you, when will i learn to do all by myself?lovely experience. I love it. Enough said. i would like to have another experience driving my car some other days. to some other places. No turning back!

Some of the things i noticed;

1) When other people are driving your car, they dont care what happen to the car. Semua langgar. That's troubled me a lot. Although, i drive to the speed limit, but i always think about my car deeply. i feel terrible if something bad happens to her while other people maneuver her.  I mean, if it broke down or "injured", i would prefer if i caused it rather than other people who dont give a damned about it. i learned a hard lesson with my Finepix Limited Edition Digital Camera. i was terribly heart broken when it was broken. while other people replaced it easily with a downgraded junk Sony Cyber Shot (not even close to that Limited Edition). So, yes. huh, sad.

2) One incident when we were on the way up a parking lot inside the mall, she was blaming my car when she couldn't go up, and the car was sliding down in a nerve-wrecking speed. The problem is , it's a manual transmission, and to go up one must use gear 1  instead of any other gear. That's why it cant go up any further. And she kept on saying "your car is the problem. im used to use a manual transmission's kancil, and i never had this problem. My dear, the hill you called hill here is just  a bump in my hometown. Not much of a challenge. Because, when i drove up the hill, i can go up using gear 5. Maybe, some parts of your story were true, but obviously you haven't experience the mountain side of Ranau.And no matter how long you have been driving, it is possible that you might not know certain things about driving. Stop blaming my car. 

3) i was driving carefully heading back to Mukah. so many lorries on the way, it was pretty dark with many corners. you would never expected what may come infront of you. And what's the point of rushing, when it was safer driving within the limit stated?She seemed upset. But i keep on driving steadily. ignoring her bored look. This is my car after all which i'm sure if something happened, i have to be responsible for the car and the passengers. and we arrived safe and sound within time. No problem right? 

4)  i didn't really like the suggestion of changing driver at all. it challenged me to prove that i can do it as well as other people do it. and i hated it so much when i sensed the sentiment that" ah, she can't do it. Must help her." i dont like orders. No, thank you. My mum is always like that: you can't do this, you can't do that, you dont try this, you dont try that. It really made you feel inferior, as if to say that other people are perfect, and you are just a second best thing. That is so much of a challenge in the first place. So much that it's eating me up. But that was well past proving time. i did it right?i purposefully let her drove my car in the city, because i am not familiar with the places. But that's the only leeway i am willing to give.

Whatever happened, it was a very satisfying journey for me. mentally and physically. At times like this, i realised that there are so many things that i don't like. And i have to stop listening to people. I have to believe in myself. I have to stop believing in everything that "should be". I have to start standing up and speaking my mind.