My point of view

I know i just committed a crime with my own "be economical with words" rule. But the time calls for much exaggeration.

These few days, a lot of things happened that really opened up my mind about everything. I understand the phrase that everything happens for a reason now. I understand the feeling of completely letting go. Infact i have been able to let go many of the things from my head and heart. I understand, that in life, no one is perfect. Some just pretend to be. i understand that in life, there's always a way to do something. Always one way or another. And life is not all the sadness or happiness.It's a mixture of both. You have to learn to accept them. :D

The most important thing is, if you want something, you have to go for it. If you prefer something, you have to state it so that other people know. If you don't like something, say it and change it. Be careful not to hurt others though, but make sure they know where you stand. you have to learn to respect people, socialize a bit, what is good manner and what is the good things that people do for you.

And wrong is wrong no matter what is the excuse. In my moral class, i learned that one can not say that morality is relative. because moral teaches us that what's right is right, and wrong is wrong. There's no compromise for that. But, what we can do, is do not be harsh in punishing. We must have some consideration but not to "right" what is "wrong".

So, my point is: all these while i was only thinking about my mistakes and errors and had been very harsh on myself since then. I turned on the victim mode, shy away from my own happiness, and suffer alone because i thought everyone was so damned perfect and carefree with their morality. Always thinking about what's the right thing to do. Always trying to be better. Now, that's a real tough challenge. In the actuality, im just being miserable on myself. i was trying to kill myself, maybe..

My new self is this confident girl, who believe in herself, who experienced the darkest hour of life and been brought back to life with God's Mercy, and is thankful that life is much better in every sense of the word. That im no longer tied to hurtful memories and people. I am myself, i know what is my capability and my duty as well as my responsibility. i definitely dont need any snobbish so called perfect people to act as if i am lower in standard than them.

I believe in proving to myself my point, and i dont really give a damned about anyone's else point of view. Because to them, i would be wrong, but for me i did the best for myself.
i'm not very expressive with words. AS proven in my rambling. But im going to prove it by living it. :D

I thanked people who had made my journey a very interesting source for a book. I thanked God for granting me the wisdom to understand.

Alhamdulillah.:D