Indecisiveness

Havent decide on anything yet. People can advice you of anything, but they dont understand what's going on with your life. They dont care about the consequence.

Havent decide whether to apply for transfer or not. i dont know what's the reason i can put there that will give me the advantage over the rest of the people who apply for transfer.

Havent decide whether to go for that person or not. Me and my insecurity always get the better of me. I don't want to be influenced by other people judgment. If i choose to be with him, it means that i have to stand strong just to be with him which i am not sure at the moment whether i want to or not. The more i think about it, the more i feel sad because my feeling is inclined on saying no to the opportunity of being with him. But if i am with him, wouldn't i be having the advantage of having  someone dear that i can turn to, whenever i feel like needing support and a little bit of TLC?

i dont know whether i want to go through this life here.in this place. where it had hurt me so badly.