Jun 15, 2009

blankness

for several days, i dont have anything to say-no opinion and no whatsoever..i just lost the passion to say the things i see in everyday life.maybe it's the "busy" ness of works that started to take their toll.i just couldnt write anything that make sense.couldnt get poetic enough to think of words and sentences to be put together.
lately, there are so many occurences that simply blew all my tranquility to pieces.

a)trouble at home
b)some people who just dont know to speak nicely, and who just cant seem to care about how it will hurt other people-which really..i still couldnt look straight at the person in the eyes and said that im not angry-because i am.
c)the rush to finish and submit FRP to our KJ-because it was not complete yet..arghhh!work!work!
d)dishonesty and lie-what can be more depressing?

i can list down many things that make me go beyond description but-Andrew Matthews-my favourite motivator said-that we can list down so many bad things because we focus on those baddies. probably i did focus on them..huh

it's just sometimes, i feel that, there are people who take advantage of my silence..they think that just because i didnt say anything rude or hurtful-im not angry or dont mind about it.but just because u said something and i didnt do not make u any smarter.and it didnt make me any smarter either.but at least it was not hurtful or hateful..huhu

i feel so alone by my newfound negativity and discomfort..
and the worst part is..i dont know what to do.

2 comments:

gha said...

turn d disco light on & cheer up!if u r facing writer's block,than i suggest u to pick up somethin to read. :)
hey try to check out this blog: http://zahiriladzim.blogspot.com

he's an actor(& my latest celeb crush =P )but he's very philosophical & cynical,just like u! =)
~my latest craze.u might like it too!

aznah said...

thank you love..i'll check him up.sort of having writer's block here..huhuhu