good is good

just finished a 3-hour presentation for my sem 3 students.for 2 classes of course.i felt real sleepy during the presentation.but just as soon as i hit the office,i immediately recovered.iam a little disappointed because i expected a more stylish presentation from these students.but just one group pull it through.the rest..huh.they were reading the text all the times.and i was sitting closer to the window,and it was really cold, wind and rain some more-i was off wondering into my darkest imagination!
there are piles of paper on my desk-which need to be taken care of before other things come up.but i just dont have the 'might' to do it.mentally and physically.but i will do it sooner or later.Yesterday, i almost panic because i thought i mixed up the papers. and that i might completely lost track of everything.luckily,nothing as dire as that happen.it just that, i seriously need to do some unpiling activity,return the papers to the students, arrange my desk neatly...before i get stuck trying to find where everything is.
i finally gave out the teacher evaluation form to my SKM students.the comments they gave were quite positive-that im ok but i have to do something more so that my PNP will be better in the future.nice.i actually thought they would give lots of childish comments.but it turned out that they didnt.im glad i actually give them the form-to actually preach about not being a bias and actually demonstrate it through our everyday action..well.it feels good.
this morning i woke up late, so i have to do sort of walkathon to the office.walking as fast i could..at times like this,my motivation is really geared to go and get driving licence sooner,so i can buy my own car-because nobody seems to give a damn this morning-seeing me walking and running at the same time.but what's new about that?so i came down to the office feeling a little let down,and i never expect my students will be my saviour..they save me whatever gloomy feeling i harboured on my way to the office.Talk about practising what you preach.:o(
i just thought there is no limit to doing good deeds.i never realise that it was just an ideal point to talk over coffee..so i expect too much.