Anti Climax

im the sort of person who loves challenges,enjoys limelights and gets excited by overwhelming speeds and momentum..

i love the rush hours of working, the busy-ness, the race and the madness. I love the whole package. i love doing something, i love the energy, the mental as well as physical perspiration. In short i simply enjoy working..

Having been working my butt off, there's nothing more bloody bullshit then people who dont do anything but still have so much to say. Or people who do not have the decency to respect other people's efforts. or people who simply dont know when to keep their damned mouth shut!

i was so moved by the energy, and had been taking advantage of the busy-ness since earlier this week. at the end of the day,when it supposedly boomed, all of a sudden the energy plummeted to below zero level. It feels so horrible. Everything i do, no matter how small or insignificant it is, no matter how big or significant it, they are all meant to boost my self-confidence. Knowing that you go beyond one point and you can do things you never do, well, that's a tremendous source of energy for me.. Knowing that you have done that, and been there.everything is meant to challenge myself.

there goes the anti-climax, i am demoralised and made to feel that what i did was not good enough.

Apalah kejadian ni??!