reflective

came back from kem kemuyang on sunday afternoon. at night, attended Malam 1Budaya, PMU. i thought i would be flat tired but, the energy of the night got me excited. so, i was able to function. More than i expected. Though, in the evening somebody not quite responsible called up and 'ordered' me to go early at the hall to help with the table arrangement. What she didnt know was bos had already asked me to go at certain time.Total Lack of consideration for me.. when she was away all over town for something insignificant.and didnt even show her face at night.Damned selfish. and some people who claimed to be tired by doing nothing..If u really wanted to talk about tiredness, then you can go fucked yourself up!

Kem kemuyang was a fresh experience. lots of things to learn, a new dimension to explore. i was grateful i went. the director was real cool guy, very down to earth, sense of humor, mature, very gentlemanly, very accomodating and in total, a very knowledgable and wise guy..Really,you have to spend some times with him to know what a leader he is.. He joined the teambuilding activities which are all physical based..but never once complained about a thing. I really felt touched during one of the activities because it required tremendous physical strenght and the students were doing it like crazy..i was touched by their team spirit.So he was showing me his photos taken during the activities, and it accidentally slipped from my mouth. and he said something that showed understanding..right then, i was touched beyond description...again. But over all, it was a good experience.new people and new environment.:o)

Someone was playing dirty. If you were stressed up about some other people, why would you say it to me?what do you want-for me to tell that person for you?or simply because you think that it would be easy to bully me than THAT person? You said you pity me because THAT person keep on ordering me around and i keep on saying yes..or you are actually just being sarcastic?You were talking along the line of religiousness, i wondered if you were really showing an exemplary behaviour. Without realizing it, my friend..you are also bullying me by singling me out for your dissatisfaction towards the other person. i DARE you..go speak to THAT person..dont just talk to someone whom you think you can bully around. and, please next time..dont use the brotherhood concept.You dont even understand it.

and today, a long lost person came back to ask for favour. just as i had expected. im not available at disposal baby. you seemed to find everybody around you to be better than me, and no offense..but it seemed that whatever i do for you would never be good enough to even categorized me as your friend. So, why dont you ask those others to help you out,hmm?

i can do without complication or nonsense.