Knock,knock..i'm home.
One week conducting a course in Politeknik Kuching. It was smooth running, entertaining and fun. the people there was encouraging and helpful.
Though i come back with mixed feeling. Too much information.too much revelation.it saddened me. my heart was heavy with all sorts of emotions.
i didn't expect the overflow of information. it saddened me so much to think that everything was far from what it really was. Everything was just a masquerade. i wondered if there were ever anything that was right at all?
it turned out that everyone-all these while is pretending to be someone they are not. i feel that the only safe place is inside my head. Everyone was playing games that can't never be accepted by a simple soul like me. im totally lost in the chaos invented by other people. I was deeply saddened.
i can't explain my feeling.But who would understand but you Lord?
Tomorrow is the big day. Despite an overwhelming feeling of happiness, i feel crippled.
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