The next step before "Exit"

Time off from bloggerland. I dont want to keep posting how sore a loser i am. Loser here means-i lost something, and not "loser" as in losing. Besides, i hardly had times to think about anything when i'm home. i just enjoyed the limited times.

Long journey too from home..

I finally come to doing the thing that i have keep on postponing. I finally have the courage to do, and not wait for any magic. I finally did what i supposed to be doing a long time ago. I pray that Allah made easy my endeavour. If it fails, well at least, i've turned the last key. If not, then i have to learn to accept what's in front of me. With gratitude.Complete acceptance. And this time, i feel relieved of huge rocks. and hope that this is my last journey out of town. And i'll be around for my family onwards. InsyaAllah.

A little sadness in my heart. i don't know how to tell few good friends of mine about my current progression. i guess it should remain a secret until it becomes official. Many times i have to remind myself to be moderate in my expectation. You never know anything for sure until it materialises, right? Still, it gives me hope that everything would be in its place soon. Would be better for me. I've wasted my times already trying to figure out what's wrong with me, denying myself a chance to move on. I was busy being someone that i hoped could atone for other people's blind side. I come back with a determination and confidence to do things that i love. Before the exit. And stop being the victim of my insecurity. There.Feel Good.

i would miss some of my friends here. But, then i couldn't stay here forever. That would be a mad thing to do.

InsyaAllah.If Allah wills it, it will be.

Prayerful.