Dead Boring

huh.
hello New Year.what a bright and shiny new year.havent been raining since the eve of 2010.sadly, nobody to share it with.all my friends are away for the new year and wont be here till monday.so, i have to endure a long and boring weekend lazying around in my house, trying to turn into " a garfield".hahaha

on the 1st of January.i woke up confused.Because it was friday.and on any other Friday..it is working day.so i frantically called my mum.then remembered that she might have attend the party at grandmother's house.and i frantically called my brother.asked him whether it was really a holiday.Laughingly, my brother said yes.and curiously asked where was i the night before...to woke up so late(it was 10.30am).Where was i supposed to be?of course in my house.im dont believe in celebrating a new year in whatever manner.i stayed home of course..my brother just laughed.huh, i was really nervous.what would i answered to my boss, if it was really a working day?hell and damnation.haha

i spent the day, settling chores i had put off from last week.i do some cleaning and washing, and eating..sounds dull but hey, it was a satisfaction.to have completed anything at all when you are in an extremely lazy mode.after everything was done, then i switched on my magic box.the TV...ended up watching the kungfu panda,which i found particularly spiritual.i just love the panda.i also love the turtle.sense of humor and wisdom-totally my sentiment.and the plot-where there is no secret ingredient to anything.the most powerful thing in this world is to believe in yourself.and because you are able to enjoy yourself just the way you are.

by night time, after having a quick dinner, i continue watching tv.this time a romantic drama.The title is "love is four letter words".the movie is about two divorce attorneys who attracted to each other.they found out later on that they are working on the same divorce case, and are working on the opposite side of each other. they couldnt deny the attraction, and in the end blew the case out of proportion when their clients found out about it.i like the story because they stand for each other.i understand their fear of marriage-with all the chaos and dramas.but if it were me, if i ever found a guy that's just right for me, i will always be ready to commit.if ever.

im thinking about something a friend said.that he said im not straightforward enough for him.and it got him pissed. he said that he dont know what will happen to my future husband,who according to him will have trouble communicating with me-
but baby, that's why i am single.because i havent found a guy who can accept me just the way i am. Of course, if i want to commit to someone, i will spend effort trying to improve my weakness for our own good.i am not marrying a moron who only see the negativity, the faults and the imperfection.and a moron who dont care much about other people.who wants me just for what i have..not what i am.but im gonna try anyway.it's time for plain speaking.

i cant wait for Monday.im done lazying around