there goes my vision

i think im not in a fit condition.
i have a headache, and i dont know what caused it.
my body is terribly swollen in several part because of too much seafood.i have the craving for seafood these lately.and i thought if i just eat a few times, it wont do me any harm..and look what a mess i put myself into.headache, and swelling and red spot.it looks like i have to stick to medication for a while.and definitely no spicy and hot food for a while.but i can do without them.

hah,i was in a tight spot last week.i went to a majlis baca yassin at the new pengarah's house.One of the TP was there.and of course with all her comments and complaint about everybody, the majlis which supposedly finish at around 9.30pm, dragged until 10.45.it so happened that she was telling everyone about her planning for the better.and she also popped question about our current KJ-whether it is ok to appoint another ustaz from our jabatan to take the role of KJ.we didnt comment anything.though in my opinion, it's not for us to decide who is more fit to be a KJ.we, the laymen can only accept whoever is it that's going to be appointed as our immediate boss.of course i didnt say that to her..for news travel fast and anything you said can be said against you..so better keep quiet.
surprisingly, the next day the news had reached the KJ's ear.i dont know who is that idiot who have the gut of messing up with all these higher up people.i was really upset by that. KJ asked me whether it's true. and i said yes.i didnt add up anything.i was really taken aback by that.i really hate whoever it is that broke the news to him.our Kj was not in a happy mode all days, and to be put into a spotlight like that..heck baby!and he said that if everyone in our dept think that it is better for him to step down and let the other ustaz rules the office, it's fine with him...more quiet..What am i to say?!stupid stupid person who thinks it's cool to tell him that.

to tell the truth, i have quite like the new Tp.A Woman so capable that she is chosen to be a leader.Isnt that an inspiration?who insists on doing things the right way, and being able to carry out what she say..well, who wouldnt feel motivated by that?
However, i dont like the way she tells almost everybody of what she wants to do.Things that are supposed to be confidential such as the appointment of KJ, or how a KJ should live his personal life, or how everybody should follow whatever it is that she thinks is "right" for her.She is trying so much for people to like her and accept her, but she is doing it backward.so people dont understand her vision..or even her attitude.What's wrong with being simplistic but in the end you get what you want?

there goes my good opinion of her.i think that some things just do not measure up.but what,we laymen should do but accept?