Diriku yang kebosanan

If anything could kill me right now,then it is boredoom.i was bored and purpose-less.i woke up early-the habit that i got from working days-and stared at the ceiling for a good 5 to 10 minutes before i remembered it is saturday.then started my day turning on the radio and floated through my day singing..i do chores around the house,watch tv as usual and read book-which i have bought quite a long time ago,finished and reread it again.and still i feel devoid of enthusiasm.i watched a Hale Barry movie which ive seen playing once in a while,but never really got the interest to finish through.. Life is a lot boring now,i have no friend anymore.but if that's the way it is supposed to be,then so be it.i'l just have to adjust.it will work out naturally..bored but im too lazy to feel down or be depressed about it.bored but i dont want to make it an excuse to be in the blues again.i dont want to be at anybody's house,or be somewhere anybody wants to go or call somebody because i dont them to see me in my worst and dont want them to hear me lament about my weakness and sadness.or listen to them pointing out my weakness yet again.i guess i just want to be alone.devoid of human contact for as long as i can manage..i bored but in need of a bolthole.my house seems perfect for that.well,having said all,i will be fine.it is not that bad actually.boring and all,it will just be fine:o)