Damned emotional

i am not feeling well. My head hurt, i have flu, and i feel off-balance. Everything i taste is bitter.i feel like vomiting drinking and eating anything.I feel terrible. I am impatient with almost everything. I couldn't focus, i made several mistakes on simple task-and i hate noisiness..bla,bla,bla..

This morning, while a discussion is going on, i was emotional when one of the documents, which unfortunately done by someone who is a so-called perfectionist obviously have many mistakes, and i have to restrain myself from saying bad things. This document thing has been going on for some time now to the extend that IF i found a mistake would ruin my mood entirely. i have been working hard on this one, and other people think it doesn't has any merit whatsoever, and decided to take it for granted..damned you for being such a nuisance! I could only blamed my intolerance to my well-being. Seriously, this is the part where i hate to entertain clowns. It is not helping that other people is trying to tell me WHAT i am supposed to do. It is not helping doing many things at a whim only to find out later that all are wrong and we have to redo again, and again. Im tired, understand that?TIRED!
It is also not helping that im at my worst right now..Seriously, do i have to apologize for other people's odd behaviour?HUH!

"I am respectful, kind, caring, outgoing, and strong. That's how I was raised, sometimes that is too much for some people to handle!"

...oh yeah, they can't handle it. They manhandle it!

How i wish i could escape "living" for a while.But then, it would be for the defeatist right? and im far from that!