Down the memory lane

No matter how many pictures i took,i could never framed my past.. A place so lovingly enticing. How dumbstruck i felt when it was revisited.people who were no longer there, places changed, memory faded, only a faint smell of everything. Even the sun felt differently. Or was it my absence that wiped away everything i knew?

i went back to the place where i grew up. a place which i knew like the palm of my hand.unfamiliarity greeted me. Time is indeed cruel. Nothing stayed the same the moment i walked out from the place. And i visited each and every people i knew, half regretting the times that flied away, i realised that nothing can be done to the present.it was all gone with the wind. The day was indeed gloomy for me.

I went to visit a former boyfriend's aunt. He was long gone. empty.

Emotions overwhelmed my senses. I dont know why i was there. Half of it was out of respect. Another half was because all of a sudden, i felt the needs for his presence. There were so many words not spoken between us which made parting a misery, but it didn't mean that we were enemy.Now that he has his own life, i pray for all the happiness in the world for him.But as i chatted away the times with his aunt, i felt a pang of regret for the thing that didn't happen between us.For the thing that could have been. But life is not ours for the taking. We might have crossed path for a while but we were just not destined for each other. That much i understand.No hard feeling.

Time is ticking away:people grow old and older. Nobody stays static. Everyone moves. get sick. died. get married. have children. get married again. No one remains.Those who did change into something. or become somebody. including me. i changed.

Or maybe it's just the rain? Because i felt a bit distant and cold...