My pockets of Sunshine

Blessing is always the small details in life that we tend to overlook because we expected that Allah would give us what we need in bulk.

Today, a stranger asked or rather invited me to eat with her in her kitchen!i was dumbfounded because i almost can't believe that such kindness existed.Or i didnt expect any kindness from people. but when she insisted on suddenly inviting me for lunch, i just couldn't say NO. It was simple dishes-jeruk buah embang(as the local called it, and ikan masin)- and also an iced tea. As i was eating, i thank god for the opportunity to witness kindness in this form. As i was leaving the premise, i thanked the aunt, and pray that God blessed her with the same kindness she had demonstrated to me. She just smiled. Although i insisted on paying the iced tea, she refused my money.

the day before, as i was paying my breakfast, i bumped into a lady friend of mine who has forgotten her purse. as she was busy contacting her husband to come and pay for the food she bought, i silently paid it for her. It seemed to be an appropriate gesture at the time. although, our acquaintance is a fleeting one-it is just a nodding acquaintance, but i am glad to be off help.

i dont believe in doing good only when people understand the meaning of your action. i believe that there is goodness in every action, IF only you want to see it that way.

Another one was-by now a very dear friend of mine- i was touched deeply by-what i believed- was a great gesture of friendship. i like the way he was being frank about things that concerned me-of work, of personal things, or of anything. i remembered once when i got myself into an accident, he was the only one who didn't try to make me feel better. he said to my face-that it was your fault, and that it happened because you were not extra careful. I was sad by the accident but i dont need people who keep on saying it's ok, everyone got into at least one accident, don't feel bad about yourself thingy. I dont need people who keeps on saying good things in an attempt to make me feel better only to laugh about it at my back. i felt better because there was someone who cared enough to point that it was serious, and i should do something about it. the reality surprisingly kept me grounded.i appreciated that about him. i like his neutrality, the brotherly affection i always feel when i'm around him, or his insecurity when he was angry or when he was doubting himself on something. i really appreciated him being there. i wish all the happiness in the world for him, and may Allah made easier for him his affairs.Amin..

i talked to my mum, and i realised how i wanted to hug her, for being the best person on earth. forgive me mum if i'm not a perfect daughter for you.But i love you so much.i might be a crybaby most of the times, and you never complaint about that even once.i lost myself once but you bring me back, and i was forever indebted to you. But, i promise you, im going to be always the best for you.Insyaallah.