This is just crazy. but i started to like someone again. A liking that i don't want to conceal. i didn't even try to. It makes me lighter and happier. Happy because he makes me laugh so hard, and he makes me want to be in a kind of relationship. Makes me feel young again.What the heck!But, i am also careful not to get into it so much. Cautious to not be too needy and desperate and suffocating.
Maybe the close proximity did it. But i don't care. i'm "in" willingly.
The best thing of all: it leads me to think that it's time i let go completely of the past. To forgive what was done, and to give myself a chance, to open up to someone new. To give a rest to people who might think that i depend too much on them for emotional support. With him, i think i can forgive anyone. i really do.
i believe i can do it. i pray that Allah made this easier for me. Insyaallah.
though, i couldn't really trust my everchanging feeling, but one must try, right?and it doesnt help that he is 6 years younger than me.
Oh, the feeling.Are you the answer to my prayer?
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