Kerana...

Another new day. Mundane,common,routine, ordinary-uneventful. I finally settled my ticket for hari raya, which gives me sense of direction...in the morning, i tried to find materials for my classes but it seemed that my focus wavered, so i give up. Instead,i updated my attendance. Ready facts and materials,no thinking involved.suit me just fine. Later, i helped preparing document for the audit-supposedly this week.. There are things that i wish have ready answers. Too bad,there arent any. I deleted a person from my facebook list. And i didnt do it to purposely hurt anybody. I did it unintentionally. When i realised it,at first i thought it was not that bad. Maybe it was the best for everybody.. But guilt is eating up on me. So out of guilt,i informed this person of my action and asked whether i could add him up again.. Then again, i thought it was just a social web. What can be so bad about it? But then,it got uncomfortable.. Believe me.i am really sorry how it turned out. It was purely childish impulse on my part,i know. And that was totally unprofessional way of behaving. On second thought, maybe it was not bad after all.i promise myself that i would turn a new page of my life.in order for that to happen, i have to forget what's in the past. I have started afresh this semester, and if it would make me feel happier, than is it a bad thing to do? I just want a justification of my promise. I have been overly concerned by what people think or feel, and i hurt myself by compromising to that. I wish i could say that i didnt feel anything about this. Just so you know that i am..hurt. It just that, perhaps it's about the right time to move away..i remembered,once you asked me to forget what happened,and i am not sure you want me to forget all that had been said or the things we have done. I remembered once you said that you are not close to anybody,and wouldnt want to be close to one.. And i remembered thinking, am i not close enough?or the thought that say:so what am i to you? Which you answered much later...just a good friend. yeah,well. Indeed.Perhaps that's the answer..and perhaps,you are right. Perhaps this is the best for both of us...