One week before the eid. Im still at my current address with half of my mind and soul already at home. Normal. It always happen when we are waiting to go back home to our family. Everything happens in blurry mode. My good friend is on the way home. I would spend these few days on my own before i go back on the 16th. i can't wait!
i can't believe that i am done with my class activity: except for listening test and a little bit of group discussion. i am still thinking of activity to do to fill up a two hour long class on Monday. I don't want my students to think that it;s okay to cut short the class just because everyone else is doing the same. So, what activity could it be?thinking, thinking.
My broadband had reached its volume's limit. i couldnt do anything online, except for Facebook, and reading news. However, my downloading activity is completely out of question, my dancing-exercising activity also out of question,everything is out of question. Life is becoming so boring.again. I suddenly feel that my free time is so dependent of my broadband. So i started making full use of my TV. huh, and disappointed because of lacks of interesting programs to watch. So i sit around and sit around..(^__^)
i'm having weird dreams. dreams where i feel like someone is trying to break in or go into my house while i am sleeping. i heard pounding doors, or sounds like someone is hammering my door/doing something to that capacity. i was always frightened by that. i woke up confused and scared and unable to resume sleep. So, it might be an emotional or psychological state. i wonder, what could be the source of my fear? if that is true, what triggers that fear?or who?these dreams are recurrent.
i was out shopping for my baby brother-baju melayu for hari raya when suddenly i saw a very beautiful pant in the store. So i tried them.and it fit just nice. i would 've bought it, but it wont be decent way of dressing for a Muslim. Previously, i wouldn't care so much, but i promise myself to be better.So i put it down, with nothing but a strong conviction that good intention leads to good action. Allah knows best what is in our heart. On the way home, i saw something that, on any other day, would've teared my heart to pieces. Again, i have this strong conviction that Allah knows what best for His Servant. I give my complete surrender to Him. " Terdapat Kemudahan dalam Kesulitan" Insya Allah.
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