Sometimes i do feel like giving up completely. i feel tired, i feel bored, i feel hopeless, that i just want to throw everything to the air and run. But, then again, on many other second thought, that wouldn't be a good thing to do. Especially for me.
Especially, when i have to rush to work in the morning because i have no heart to get up, get dress and be ready to face the world (literally and figuratively)
i get tired trying to avoid stepping on anyone's tail, trying to avoid confrontation and trying to be calm under any circumstances. I get tired living with no voice. i get tired of living at all. tired of people who don't know when enough is enough. tired of everything. tired of avoiding confrontation just because people will always blame someone who is frank enough to have her own mind. i get tired of crying my heart out just because people are often insensitive and i never said a word. i get tired of pretty much everything.
im tired of crying because i feel so out of place, out of focus, uncomfortable and sick. i feel so tired.
Tired from having to tolerate people who made me this ill (mentally and psychologically). Tired of knowing about something, but doesn't really know what to make of it.
Tired of forgiving people who dont know the meaning of forgiveness, and keep on doing the same thing after the previous one is forgiven and forgotten.
im tired of hoping that everything is gonna be alright, and everything would stop, and that person or persons would have enough conscience in his and her mind to live out of their insecurity. thus, stop torturing me.
Ya Allah. This is unbearable!
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