The Things You Never Knew

i have always been practical.everything i do is based on one sound and logical thinking.something i can explain and justify quite adequately.it seems that i have always believe in conforming with whatever that feels right to the mass. and i never thought of being at the other side of the blanket.but i am now.
i decided to try something new.something i never even think of trying.something totally out of my practical-uncomplicated-existence.and before i actually proceed to doing that,my head is loaded with doubts and other thoughts. this thing that i am about to do has no logical explanation,and cant be justify.it is purely emotional.
and i become unsure of what to do or to expect.i almost back off.and i didnt.
and to be fair,after it was done,i found out that none of my doubts and thoughts were there.Though some of the thoughts were.Because i meant to see it as a try-out, i didnt actually feel any excitement or enjoyment.it is indescribable. my mind was busy thinking about the "how".so, i forgot to really enjoyed it as it is.and the worse part is, i only want to do it once.
but that was before.the problem with thing as emotional as this is,it's very easy to get caught up.You get attached to it.and many other things started to spring out of nowhere.by this time,there is no turning back.you promise to do one thing,and you end up with ten.;o).i knew this would happen.and i am not ready for more.huhu
though thanks to the person involved.i woke up feeling that the sun is bright snd beautiful...hahahaha.
so it's true that people dont change you.they just give you the confident to be yourself.to be something that's different from the one you used to be.