As You Like It

as much as i want to get away with everything,i really want to be in control.i dont want to be in a mess just because i let my heart rules my reason.
and as much as im convinced im saying no when i mean no...somebody still couldnt take it for the real truth.
to tell the truth im okay with anything,but being a girl who is used to do doing things my way,unsupervised and alone,i find that succumbing to other people wants and needs a little overwhelming.
i valued space and am not ready to change anything that has been there before.mentally, physically,literally and figuratively. but for the time being, i dont know how best to say that.
the thing is im not interested in half measure.never would be.Besides i keep having this feeling that this somebody is insisting that i am the one who wants this badly-which i find a little unsettling.in my opinion,if u want something as much as i do,what's the point of making a pretense out of it?in actual world,i love it but not desperate to have that.
but i do think that to stop everything now would be asking too much..but probably the best thing to do.