Nov 15, 2009

Careless Remark

Carelessness causes death.
it all happened on Thurday evening. this was not the first time it happened.Infact it can be considered as a norm.i dont know what people in their right mind would tolerate such stupidity and dragged everybody along too.Still i am raging mad.i feel such a suffocating emotion in my heart.
He did it again. This time he took advantage on someone, and when people started asking question he started using what he knew best-the emotional blackmail, the physical threatening, shouting, and blame everyone for everything that he did wrong-instead of answering the question. This time he asked everybody to move out from the house!Damn him for thinking that he has the power to control everybody.Damn her for staying. After all of these years, why cant he change for the better? Her sacrifices have no meaning at all to him?ungrateful,insensitive and downright selfish.
He thinks it's ok to go about menacing other people?He thinks that just he is an elderly, we the younger one do not have the right to say a thing?He go about saying thing without regards to people's feeling, and claimed how righteous he is and how bad other people are..Dear God, fortunately we are not the type who love to say things without thinking, only to regret anything that comes out from our mouth later on..If not then they will be hell to listen to.and probably that's what made him think that we are weak.Because we didnt fight back-Blood by Blood!
I hate him for being the person he is.he has no respect for other people.He dont care about other people. He dont know the word SORRY. Both of them think that it is cool to drag everybody down to their standard.Whenever we plan to be better, she has always been the setback. i dont know why she still want to stick to the bully.She is hurt physically and mentally.Why oh why???!! and why we need to condone to everything?why should they torture us with all the pains???Why should we stay???and the answer is always...nowhere to go,you all are still small, shameful, bla,bla,bla..Just for once say that you cant leave him because you love him so much you cannot see reasons.What make u stay together for 26 years?!What's the point of nursing a pain for 26 years?!No need to say that we need a father to continue living.Bullshit!!!
and he have the gut to come back as if he has done nothing wrong.and act as if it has never happened. that he can just barge in and people will forget everything.What the hell? last night you spit, you say terrible things-and suddenly you come without any guilt at all. Senang,senang.oh yeah, have a nice day!Guys are very practical.when they dont want to be responsible for their feeling or what they do, they forget it.how convenience!
i have no patience for people with no respect for other people.Or people who couldnt say what they actually want and set on picking other people.I dont have the sense of humour. and i really couldnt tolerate "weird sense of humour" right now.Who thinks that "joke" means making other people feel like shit.
careless remark-Ucapan yang tidak berhati-hati-you dont care what is the consequence,yg penting cakap.

2 comments:

gha said...

i notice that lately your entries involve 'emotions'.honestly i feel pretty scared reading them..but that's what a blog is all about,rite?

aznah said...

actually im fine.but when worse comes to worst kan..thanks for mentioning 'emotion'.i dont know how to enjoy all the emotion.all these while im a pretty calm and unexcited person.so i guess,this is what happened when i get over excited..or over-"picked".huhu