...Even better
I thought that my self sufficiency would have evaporated after yesterday. And i would miss him like crazy, and would start softening up.. None of that happened.I managed to settle quite a number of my works which i have abandoned before. And the day passed by "bearably".I was not conscious of his presence, and i can focus quite easily. I saw him when the friend in question sent me off to office in the morning:"now, there's your boyfriend.." which was answered by a very defensive.."ape pula, ***** tak balas pun mesej dia"...and i realized that, i could fall back into the same pattern if i'm not careful.. So my resolution is i'll watch the words that come out from my mouth.I dont want them to effect the way i think.
Today, i went and ask the PET about UITM. and as i had expected there are many things i need to consider. i was passed over to a Mr Ashraf from the headquarters..haven't call him yet.But i will.
After office, i went out with my friends.eating and talking. Really, a guy's perspective is always more positive than the girls. We were talking and it opened up my mind about things that had been bothering me a lot these lately. So i decided that i would put all the matters behind and moved on with my life. What's the point of wasting our precious life bothering about what other people like or dont like about us?at the end of the day, what matters is what god's has destined for us...
Reflecting back, i wonder why i ever think that i could never be able to face him if anything happened. Seeing it the way i see it now, well, i could have face Hitler!
Thinking...
Whatever will be, will be
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