once bitten, twice shy

Ignorance is bliss! how true.

disappointment seems to be piling up these lately. But, it all happened for the betterment of life. To learn, un-learn, and re-learn something new.

By now, i would say that nothing is surprising anymore. People can be anything they choose to be. And we do not have any say in this so-called rights to choose/ rights to be. So, probably this is the backlash of all the freedom campaigns. people have no regards for deeper meaning of connection. They become more individualistic(just to make it sound nicer)in approach.

So the situation is: you have this close friend-basically someone who do many things with you, and would be seen almost "always" together with you..and then, all of a sudden, she started giving you the cold shoulder, treated you like a doormat, etc.Just to get the imagination working. You dont know why she acted the way she do, all your efforts of being nice were in vain, and she started to ignore your very existence, then you start to ignore her as well. How long can you stand the cold treatment? The problem starts to rise when she went around to all the people you both know, lamenting about your cold treatment towards her. She made everyone you knew advised you to try patching up with her and start being nice to her...????What she did had pointed the finger towards you.if it were me,it would not be pleased with that.

i'm not superstitious, im pretty straightforward, and pretty naive(if you would say that) and certainly not superficial. I am honest in my dealing, and im always at my best with all people. The problem is, people think that my best conduct is to be taken advantage of.well, that's the problem with their perspective..not mine.or so i think.

But as i'm thinking, and event after event unfolding, i couldn't just be passive and let everything that can be prevented happens. I couldnt just accept that people are naturally this and that, and i shouldn't complaint. See where it brings me when i have no say of everything? People take me for granted, people are trying to ruin my reputation, and people made the decision for me. certainly they caused more harm than good.

Im not really good in explaining other people's behaviour. Especially when i can smell something rotten in it. sufficed to say that, this time around , let just stay a distance away from her. No matter how good the compensation is,what's done cant be undone. Whatever she might have done in time of her hatred and jealousy, she would have to ask Allah for forgiveness. In my part, To say that i'm disappointed would be an understatement. BUT i forgive her for everything. I pity her for whatever it is that she is going through.

Praise be to Allah, the Almighty. Verily He is the Disposer of Affair.