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Life is busy. I would have to retime my holiday. i would have to squeeze in my driving class. i would have to put everything in between.i would have to settle the Quality work before June. i would have to do lots of re-adjustment. Being the Q for MUET Speaking test. And in June another Enhancement Program as a fasilitator. To be real serious about it, i will not have times to spend on trivial matters.

Preferable.

Yet, i'm not in good mood today especially. Because, again i can sense a hypocrite. Only this time, it is pretty much closer.i dont want to start being mean to anybody. i'd rather not. But, these lately there are too many words that i dont think i would really like to hear..For example, if you fail in something, and you start telling me that the teacher think im the worst, or things such as you being close to this one person before i come into the picture. Or things such as i, on purpose, want everybody to think that me and another friend are having something going on....i am quite disturb by this pattern of behaviour.

The most ridiculous one: this dear friend is quite mad about something. And because i was just listening without any opinion, or without siding anybody, this dear friend started poking on issue which she knew would get my blood boiling. Thank god, i already realised the pattern. However, it ruined my entire peace of mind. Thank you very much for that.

I'm not sure whether, what she wants.I noticed that she will get real mad if i didnt join her session of complaining.And, therefore started to poke on anything that will surely get me excited with loathing..How to tell her that i dont like that?

What i need next: Focus, focus, focus. Insya-allah, will work out just fine.