For better or for the worst?

On Friday, i came home with an anticipation of good times to come, to pamper myself, to get my house in order and to just chill in.

stress and tension were up to my neck, and i desperately need a break to regain my mental peace, and just to take a rest from the chaos. still no one pays attention to my woes. They probably thought that i was joking about being physically and mentally tired. i was not. On that day, as i was excited thinking that im going to have the remaining of the day in blissful rest, i was asked to sit in for someone's for duty that night. my hope was partially crushed. And my anticipation was ruined further by someone else that very day, for being such a jerk.

I desperately need some TLC right now. i dont need selfish people. ARGGH!!!

Things were cooling off with me and my bestmate.. and i had long realized that we were up to nothing. And im in the process of totally letting go..After what had happened, it would be foolish to assume that things were still the same..it had lost its shine.. i was bored of his childishness...and im pretty disappointed because of his lack of consideration for my feeling. I'm totally disappointed that he is hitting on my friend and conveniently did it through, me..I'm disappointed that in the end whatever people say about him is the truth..he is just a childish pretty-face whose aims is to have fun fun fun..so disappointed.
And he had the gut of pointing out that im being possessive, and that i didnt like him being close with anyone..

Hah, that was enough to get me in the worst condition. Why he did this to me?If he knew i wont like that, why did he insisted on getting the phone number from me?What is it that he was trying to prove? But if his objective is to tear my heart to pieces..HELL YEAH, BABY.YOU SUCCEEDED. If he can get the number easily why would he insisted on getting it from me??

The worst thing he asked me was:what's your problem towards me? He is the one with the problems, and he pointed it over to me...

He is the only person who can answer that truthfully..But he is the one who denied it...

i feel so helpless and lost..What, can i do to help myself this time?

Nothing is helping...