Rambler's notes

The sun and its scorching heat! dysfunctional air condition!i was bathing and basking at the same time. As long as we are on the complaining ground..But that's all that can be said.It is not as if complaining can solve matters. One has to take it all in strides..Period.Enough complaining.

some thoughts.

First of all, i was quite surprise by my reaction. Someone has been treating me unfairly rude these lately. I was thinking of returning it right to the person's face. Now im glad i didnt. Suddenly this person was acting nice again, and as usual trying to strike conversation about her problems, why she was this and that.
My reaction that surprised me:usually i will almost always on the dot forget whatever that had happened. Today, i sense some coldness in me. i didn't fall for the tricks to get attention. i must have hardened up or i must have been growing wiser?..hahaha.Must be both.

Before this, we were on a task together, and i am a pretty cheerful person. the first thing i always do in the morning, is smile and talk to her. That day, she dismissed me and ignored me all days. One thing i hate is childish rudeness. So, i practically was acting similar. By the end of the day, she came to me complaining about a bad night with the boyfriend, and claiming all sorts of excuses. i knew that she was trying to give excuses to her behaviour, and i played along to her game then.

Nowadays, i dont have the energy to entertain other's whim and fancy. Suit yourself if you want to be the Kera sumbang, shut yourself from the whole world, mistreated others, whatever.. It's all fine by me. Torture yourself with idiocy or childishness if that's what you so badly want. By any measure, it's fine with me!

Another one was making up stories about what other people did not say. If you think i messed up, just say it directly. i dont need a third person point of view to convince me of incompetency. But she chose, anyway, to point the statement to someone else, which really get on me pretty badly at first. But lies, if you keep repeating it, lost its appeal. So one fine day, as she was about to throw another damned lie at my face, naturally i gave her a piece of my mind. i was bored and angry because she kept on bringing up the subject. That was what happened when you poked in the wrong place. I wasn't that angry actually. But i was bored with all the complaining and so called plain speaking.And what did i get: you are emotional, you shouldn't be angry when people say things to you..yeah, right. i shouldn't be angry, but you would, wouldn't you?

How many times did people say things to my face, and they owned it. i was hurt by my incompetency but i appreciated the thought. I just don't like being treated like i'm a no brainer. That's all. i don't care if people commented me in front of my face.But owned it Up!

i can read her like a book by now. and i dont want to push something trivial. let her be.

Just because i am not the kind who speaks my mind, doesn't mean i can't think on my own as well. She might just get it confused.

Ah-ha.the heat does get on me..:o)