the road not taken

The Road Not Taken


TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost.

-i think i have chosen the road less traveled.and i like what i found.

the road taken..

today is my second last day here.a ceremony was held to officially marked the end of everything.tonight,i'll be following my friend from the jabatan to a little rendezvous somewhere in one borneo.i have said all that i can say in my speech.
my wish is that everything will turn out just fine, and that God will guide me to follow the blessed road of life..insyaallah.

a thoughtful person

well, today is the second time i joined the monthly assembly.i feel a little embarras to join it at first because, when i joined it the first time..i dont feel that i belong..insecurity again..
infact i was having second thought all the time today..for being there,i was rewarded with 2gb pendrive.
to say the least, i like the big boss.so diplomatic,choose his words carefully but nevertheless got the meaning across.i think, he is the right person for the job.i feel that he is a humble person and a very wise and mature person.i become his fan immediately.
he was full of ideas-i think he is a real teacher-a very intellectual person.
well,most of the time, we know an intellectual person by looking at how he behave in his everyday life..and most of the time,people who talk too much..only know how to talk but dont know how to behave accordingly..
he is definitely in my list of idol..;o)

crying out loud!!

im not having a very good thought rite now..it was triggered by one negative feeling after another.
im naturally not an easily angered person.infact, it will take a long a time for me to understand that people are bullying me.But, once when i get the uncomfortable feeling,then it can only mean one thing..that it is the truth.
it pissed me off because, some people think that i am a no brainer..and cant do anything useful.then, what's the meaning of all my efforts all these while?
after the whole day working, i can only feel exhaustion..hmm, maybe,he thinks that he knows everything and i m just a green horn who dont know a single damned thing..such a pity for him..i hope he grows up..sigh...
the mood drags to my class...huhu.
that's why im not sure of staying here.because i dont like the system..furthermore,im a radical golongan muda, i have my own thinking.i simply think that the older system will break my spirit to pieces..i hate the old bureaucracy thingy..it is ancient already..one that's better left aside!

minute to midnight...

what an irony, today is my first day for my last week.im counting down to friday.Come friday, that's the real parting time.huhu

harus bagaimana?

well,these few days i have been trading sms with a person. a person whom i dont know and have no idea how he get my phone number-maybe a friend of my friend.i think this is not the first time such thing happens.
it is important for me to know a person before i can be friend with them, and i dont want to be too involve with them on any term.pelik kenapa mesti terjadi begitu pula..
it is not easy for me to like a person whom i've never met and dont have any ideas about..
harus bagaimana?

goodbye does not mean forever

well, this will be the last week for my training.next week before the hari raya, i'll be at home, enjoying hari raya after two years celebrating it halfway across the world..it means that i have to leave my new friends that i begin to feel very fond of, and my dear students..
i have learned a lot for the last three months.how to boost my confidence everytime,how to control the stress level and how to live among people, and many other things, which are invaluable to my growing up process.it has not surprise me in the least. im feeling a sense of pride for everything that i have gone through all this while.
im proud that i am one of the instrument that help teach the students here.No regrets at all for being a teacher nor doubts.only overwhelming happiness!it has not been a bed of roses, but i would not want it any other ways.
im thinking of giving a little souvenier for my students, not much but i hope it suffice as a statement of thanks.
and im thinking of writing a poem for my friends for being tremendous support, but do not have any idea yet.Maybe, i should take one of Mr.Shakespeare or some other poets..there i am, always the sentimental fool.;o))
i dont know where i'll be posted after this and i dont really mind..coz,wherever the ground i walk on,that's where the sky i look up to.
well, it's time for me to take a bow anyway..

on love

-a piece by Ibn Hazm which interests me when i read it from a book-

Dalam sepi aku bersamanya,
hanya berteman hembusan bayu,
ketika akup malam membentang,
dalam gelap semuanya tenggelam,
hai pujaan...
ghairah hidupku akan hilang kala jauh darimu
amboi,
berharap hidup lama
bukankah tak ada salahnya?
seolah aku, dia dan gelap malam,
serupa tanah, kehidupan, intan,emas
dan besi hitam

-well,it looks like that i didnt lose my poetic sharpness-

On Love

how fast the time runs,
i blink,toss and turn,
and the end is here.
how fast i know you,
you ar there and then i lost you.
how long should i remain aloof,
i run and hide
but i have to face you.
how close should we get, you move and i walk,
and the sweetness is lost forever.
How the memory last forever,
blooming and fading,
and it is just a shade in the past
If the time stops,
and the moment stays,
Would You?

in the rat race

really, this should be written last week, when i feel nothing but mounting tension. but i think i feel better now.my focus has improved tremendously and im able to work with open mind.last week i experienced mixtures of feeling.probably because everybody was busy doing something and everybody was experiencing stress of some sort..so, i might have just absorb all the bad energy.
one thing struck me like cold water was that the one person you can laugh around with is not necessarily the one to play the fool with.
i admired her ability to separate work and play..as well as frightened by it.