disturbia

when i went for the course in KL, i never ever thought that i would come back a mess.someone had really spoiled my memory of the course..but in a nice way.nicer that i have problem putting myself together.
i met my Gentleman..in the least expected place..looking vibrant but a little reserved.maybe he was having problem.his eyes were not as warmth as usual,though he did smile at me.i dont know how to pretend i didnt see him at that time..well,actually i dont want to pretend.
although, it was a little awkward,i feel glad to see him in flesh and blood, happy and safe.
and there is this problem with all the KPT's contract and everything.which really makes me confuse and angry at the same time..but then,they got all the say in this matter..looks like my RAV4 would have to wait a little bit longer.
im basically busy thinking about lots of things right now..i couldnt set my priority.
im trying to post pictures later bcoz havent got the time to transfer it yet.

can we start again?

can we start again?
i wish that i could turn back time and say hello once again.
i wish i could undo everything from the start..or if not,went from one door to another door of memory so i could see everything that happened before my eyes.
why do i feel such feeling of disturbance when i see u?or is it another foolish game of mind?
i saw you before you even see me.i knew u before u even turned around.i like u no matter what other friends say about you.
so,can u call me mad for being all over the place with wanting you?
needing you when i couldnt close my eyes at night.
thinking of you when i am so far away across the world.
hoping you would feel the same
wanting you to treasure all the memory
like i have been badly doing since the time started!
so, can we start again?

this rebelliousness

true to the title.im a rebel.today it's supposed to be the time for explorace.and i've at least not attended more than 2 slots of the BIG since it began.today, i didnt go for something that's very disappointing..i dont want to be a slave of something that i m not supposed to follow.so i didnt go.as simple as that.
im a personal person and i take everything little thing personally.so,whatever it is that i find not appropriate for me..i'll just leave it cold.no time to be pretensious.
tomorrow going to be presenting a sajak called si Tanggang's Homecoming because before this course, i have been really honoured to be here..now because of that disappointment..i couldn't be bother.it doesnt mean anything anymore.it only means that i have to stand in front and recite the poem..huhu

Pulau Mamutik from the net

saturday

saturday is a good time to rest and relax for working people. and yes, in my case.it's so true. just finished marking assignment for my students and my head is buzzing-i've catch the flu..huhu thinking of going back home today, but i feel a little tired that i havent begin packing my things yet. my sis phoned and said that there is a kenduri tomorrow.so, it seems that i have to go home today..or probably early tomorrow.i'l decide later. yesterday, my technical students asked me to join them for the picnic in Pulau Mamutik-glad i declined.kalau tidak, im going to be their burden pulak nanti-demam2 pun gatal mo picnic..hehe.im so sorry i didnt join boys..but probably next time.hope there's a next time.