So far this must be the busiest term for me. I feel like everything is shoved inside my throat. So many things to do. Just when you think you can inhale a bit, works are mountain high again. Sampai mimpi pun mimpi dikejar- kejar. Vampire pula tu yang mengejar. Funny but at the same time ngeri! I remembered shutting my eyes tightly while watching Dracula Untold. I was writhing in my seat. Bukan sebab perasaan seram but because the movie made you feel that no matter how far you run, or where you hide, i am going to find you and break your skull. Violence and insecure. The same feeling i had when i watched a sci-fi movie man vs robots. (forgot the title). Horrible feeling it was. I have problems relating to historical based story and sci fi where life so much depended on machine. Probably because both are devoid of stability and security.
Last night, i was teary the whole day. I cried and cried and cried. I started to wonder why i was teary and depressed.After isyak, i realised that i was stressed out because of all the workloads. Right after i came in after 2-weeks kursus in Penang. So many things that goes out of hands this week and me out of frustration and anger, decide to take it all in!Lesson: never decide when you are angry!
The whole week starting Monday is the special needs course. Tuesday i am presenting paper. And i planned to spend the rest of November finishing quality related works. Seriously, who am i kidding?!
And dare i ask myself, why i am cranky?
