Why, What and Where i write?

#30 day Blog Challenge

Finally i get up to doing this. By nature, i am a quite reserved person. i dont really say what i feel, sometimes my mind is clamouring with things but still couldn't put it into word. When i like something, i keep it to myself. When i am angry, i keep it to myself. When i am sad, i throw words here and there but not the entire feeling. sometimes, it is bottled up for a very long time, and never really get out.

Why i write?
It is a kind of escapism. to write and let it out unhindered. it is more beautiful that way, i guess. i write because i love the mechanic of writing. the expressions are more sensible. the feeling is more pronounced. and because i love the privacy of writing. i love the quiet atmosphere you build up with your own mind. The way when you write, you build up the thought. i love the trains of thought. sometimes, something is so beautiful that it is even more beautiful when you write it down. Like a song.

What i write?
Everything that is available at the time of writing. At first i am writing as a form of reflection. for me to go back to when i feel down and in needs of reassurance. Or when i am so tired, i need a medium of release. that is when my blog comes in handy. as a storage of my feelings and thought.i seldom write of bad memories. i justify myself when i write. something that is impossible for me to do with human. i write of good feelings, mostly and sadness. i write about strong emotion: mostly sad and melancholic things.

Where?
My blogs. i am so insecure and not confident that i feel exposed if i write  and someone read my writing. Terribly exposed. i dont just let anyone read them. because it is private and personal.  the time i let someone read it, well that must be a person im comfortable with. someone i could trust.

done with the first topic. Challenge is on!

The most tiring week

What a tiring week!

I have been going back and forth RNU-KK-RNU this week. My mother is ill. The only right thing to do is to be by her side. To help out where necessary. Thus my going back and forth. Alhamdulillah she is getting better, though still need assistance to the toilet. Alhamdulillah ya Allah.

I come back to work on Friday with tonss of pending tasks and unfinished business. 

Hmm. I feel that this 2 week time is a down time for everyone. I wish that i could make everyone that matters to me happy. Because whenever these people feel down, i am affected by that. I couldnt help myself but feel it too. 

I pray that i could contribute towards betterment. I pray that Allah guides me to do what's right, always. InsyaAllah